Another Spiritual Odyssey
And Medicine Primer
A MEDICINE MAN'S UNDERSTANDING OF
THE MEDICINE OF SELVES
BY
Copyright © 2002 White Eagle
Smashwords Edition
AN INTRODUCTION
White Eagle is a practicing Medicine Man who has been blessed by the Great Spirit Father with both Healing and Vision Medicine. Being part Algonquin and Arapaho, he carries forward a mixture of both traditional and nontraditional Medicine techniques. Ever seeking to serve the Will of The Great Spirit, White Eagle endeavors to enable all of the Great Spirit's children to learn of His Love and in the many ways in which we may allow His Light and Love to enrich our Well-being and lives. Ever in a constant vigil in seeking ways to serve the Will of the Great Spirit, White Eagle has left the normal order of the societies that we live in to walk totally the path of a Medicine Man in order to embrace and help in the initiation of the New Order of the Great Spirit's Will and Consciousness in humankind. In the last period of time much information about the coming events as pertaining to the reawakening of Spirituality has been provided to him by his Guides, or Angels so to speak, as well as by the Creator Himself in order to bring forth a new and heightened life in the Spirit of each of His creation.
This document is a product of this endeavor as given by the Great Spirit for him to do in answer to his prayer for guidance in his daily meditation. These manuscripts are still new and seeking conventional publishing and support in distribution. As a PohTikaWah or Medicine Man, White Eagle is a Priest, Healer, Teacher, Visionary, Counselor, and Ceremonial Leader but perhaps most important, a Guide in the way of discovering the Truth and Perfect Child within each of us.
In the traditional way, a Medicine Man would give a person a Medicine Name usually around the birth time as a vision would be given them however, several years ago during one of his daily Mediations the Great Spirit said for him to start Naming people with a Name that describes His Original Thought as He created each of them. This Name describes the perfect pattern of each Self as He created them and describes what they not only have always been but also that which they are and ever will continue to be (or better said, “What does Not need fixing”). The Medicine Name as described by White Eagle helps us understand why we have certain likes or dislikes and habits that are most normal for us, as well as abilities in which we can easily excel and use in our growth. White Eagle explains the Name as well as its Medicine and tendencies but always reminds us that we are ever in growth as to become greater channels of the Great Spirit's Light and Love and to do this we are ever learning new Medicine to add to that of our beginning so as to please the Creator. This is our true desire of our inner child.
In addition to the Naming Vision, White Eagle has also been given abilities in vision such as looking inside one’s body to detect illness or infirmary, finding objects that are considered lost, going backwards or forwards in time as well as others. White Eagle has also been given the ability to channel or so as to say allow another person's Guides to speak to them through the body of him as well as channel his own personal Guides in an advisory capacity about all matters current and past that are having an immediate influence on one. White Eagle lives in what might best be described as altered states and does not use or condone the abuse of any drugs nor of anything or of anyone. Another of the abilities that has been given to White Eagle is for him to walk in another's moccasins in a past life review in order to release carryover problems that often occur from past lives. This process takes several days to complete and the product is specific documentation and a channeled review. White Eagle's knowledge of the Spirit world also provides dream state interpretations as well.
As a Healer, White Eagle has many abilities in working with energy, potions, and teas as well as Medicine Stones. There have been many instances whereby he has cured someone's headache or hiccups with a single thought. White Eagle will also be the first one to thank another for healing themselves and as he says that he takes no credit but full responsibility in such matters as he only invokes the Will and Love of God. White Eagle guides people in the process of meditation and from time to time holds workshops in learning the Medicine Wheel Way as well as about Plant Spirit, Animal Spirit, and Mineral Spirit Medicines and how we can use them to enrich our lives.
White Eagle sometimes kids around about being a Native American Ghost Buster but know well he takes these matters very seriously. Unlike some others he uses the unlimited potential of Love to help in problems with discarnates, or entities, and possession as they are very dynamic in the Well-being of all involved. White Eagle is not a Witch or Witch Doctor although he has much knowledge about such things and will refuse to help any who are not aspiring to the highest ideal which is, “To Walk in Balance and With Harm to No One Being or thing, including Oneself!” If possible White Eagle will record personal readings on cassette tape and asks that each provide their own tape for use. He says that one receives what they are willing to invest in any matter. He asks that each desiring a reading, prepare and bring a written list of questions to be answered for their own use, as he does not want to see them. White Eagle also makes many ceremonial items and personal items such as prayer sticks, rattles, shields, earrings, necklaces, as well as paintings.
Often White Eagle will speak of only charging a commitment to change when asked about receiving money for his services. However, as all truly know, one must be willing to give something away to receive more of anything at any point in time. Gifts or donations of money or other things that might support the work will be welcomed by him. As White Eagle recognizes that in a respectful sharing way, those who have resources to share will be the first to benefit in the sharing process. However lack of money or resources are often manifestations of symptoms of other Spiritual dilemmas and he would never deny his services to anyone because of their lack of a comfortable money supply. Each one should feel comfortable with whatever they feel they should provide, as it is a contribution not a fixed price. White Eagle sees it only as a contribution to God and the Church.
This document is presented in what might best be described as pristine in its word usage and while sometimes the word usage might not be considered to be grammatically correct, it is in its original true condition to the Spirit of the consciousness and is most proper. As it is given to express this information in the English language, many of the words available for use fall short of the full dynamics of the total scope of the consciousness being expressed. In no way is it also to be inferred that there is any bias or weight given to the male or female of the human species. All true Beings, which are all Spirits created by The Great Spirit or God as some refer to Him, have chosen to incarnate into each of the “Body-forms” and races; which is why the Great Spirit created the diversity in the first place. I call Him Great Pop and I am certain that He loves and favors each as equal in His esteem and so should we. As the Earthplane experience is truly that of learning the unlimited ways of experiencing Brotherhood and expressing Love, the consciousness associated in the term Brotherhood is that of the willingness to support, sacrifice for, share, care, nurture, guide, and most important, value another Being regardless of what sex or other condition the body is in. Any other word associations that might even in the slightest way be considered to be gender biased should be considered the same way and the consciousness to the Spirit of the use retained. This material is presented in the Spirit of Onement and the Law of One and is meant to be received in the same way, each samely unique and in their uniqueness the same.
This material was completed in 2002 is the sole property of White Eagle and all rights are reserved. No part of this book may be transmitted or reproduced in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical including photocopying and recording, or by any information storage or retrieval system, except as may be expressly permitted by White Eagle.
White Eagle may be contacted at ASpiritWalker.com or at:
PO Box 183
Pinebluff, NC 28373
It is my sincerest hope that this material will in some way be of service in bringing forth some of the abundance of Light and Love that the Great Spirit has for each and every one of you.
In the years that I have been guiding peoples, I have always cautioned them about what they read in books as I do also to you here and now. A book in its very best of conditions is but one person’s documentary of their observations as they walk the path of life, and indeed can be no more than that. But, while they might speak of the squirrel running up the tree ahead and share their vision of that, they might miss the butterfly emerging from the cocoon behind. This book is a composition of information that comes to me both through meditation and channeled through me by my Guides. It is presented in the Spirit of Love. It was given to me to understand that the purpose of each person’s incarnation to Earthplane for an Earthwalk is to learn more about the unlimited ways to experience and to express Love and Brotherhood.
In many of these books I talk about the Prevalent Culture. When I call it “White”, I am not meaning Caucasian or even European for any that might be sensitive to such or take any offense as none is intended. The current Prevalent Culture, which is at times also called the “White Western Way” by some, actually has it genesis long before the man named Jesus was hung on a cross. I consider that event to be an act of “Being Murdered” by some of its adherents because of its Religion and foundation of materialism. And as Great Pop often tells me, “This too can Change”. I hope He was Not talking about those 30 pieces of silver, don’t You?
Presented With Love,
(TOC)
Part I - The Circle And Odyssey Continues
SELF HELP - (S/H)
How to Experience Renewall / Healing
How to Champion Personal Issues
How to Realize Success in all Relationships
How to Champion Anger and Fear
How to Realize one’s Objectives
A Note From The Author….
It has now been over two decades since Great Pop first told me to begin the writing of these now many books. At first I was reluctant and told Him that I certainly desired no such thing for myself. I also mentioned that I did not feel qualified or with sufficient skills in writing to do such an important task. He was persistent in His bequest of me to do such though, and soon began the effort on my part of such an important endeavor.
At the completion of the material of the first work that is titled The Medicine Way, I was 47 years of age. At that point, I already was keenly aware of the power and potential impact of the word, be it in song or print. Each of these mediums can dynamically affect and effect an individual’s attitude and perspective and thereby, Life. One can always find something positive or negative about any condition or thing as well. If one listens to angry or sad songs often enough then one will soon become of that same attitude and perspective. Once that occurs, one’s Life experience and expressions will become more of a mirror of that than anything else.
In the material of some of the volumes that Great Pop has given for me to write, He has had me include the parallel account of my personal Life experiences during the development of them. In doing that I can only speak as honestly as I can of my feelings and attitude as each experience occurred. Also, when more than a single Being or thing is involved in an experience, each that is involved will have its own personal perspective of it. Therefore I pray that no one Being or thing be judged or condemned by their behavior or personal choices of expression in such an accounting. Still, I can and do honestly say that these experiences and expressions actually happened, and happened that way to me.
Regarding Grow, Growth and Life purpose….
In asking Great Pop as to how I should be and do while I am here on Mother Earth, He told me "Little One, I made that theme park for any Beings and things that want to experience some of the limitless means and ways to experience and express Love and Brotherhood”.
Some people profess that we each have a specific mission to accomplish in our lifetime, or that we come here to learn lessons of some sort through which we will Grow toward completing some kind of “Spiritual Transformation” and thereby achieve a “Higher” condition of being. I personally believe that all of this aspiration and ambitious thinking about one’s reality and life’s purpose is founded in Fear and is all a falsehood. I am certain that we come here for experiences by our own choice and that we experience things of our own manifestation through our thoughts and Prayers of Desire. This means that there is No mandate or mission, nor any requirement to learn anything, there is only a path of life that is of our own choosing and design.
When I was young Great Pop told me: “Grow like the tree and thereby from the inside out in all directions". I thought He meant that I should aspire to grow taller and thereby bigger. I later learned the Proper idea and Ideal meant by His use of the word Grow as being more like the concept of “Multi-dimensional Expansion,” as in this ideal we are in a sense “Ever and Always Complete”.
Through each incarnation we gain knowledge and understanding and therefore Expand from the experiences and expressions of being ourselves, thus we have more to offer and share with other Beings and things and their expansion as well. This is the Real and true condition and Potential for every Being and thing in the physical or spiritual condition, from the single celled micro-organism to the entirety of all creation - period.
All Beings and things are considered “Even” in Great Pop’s idea and Love of us. He would Never favor or set any thing as being better than any other thing of His Creation, therefore, within the contents of this or any of the other material that has been Brought forth by this channel and servant of The Creator, I pray that you will properly interpret and correctly understand the use of the words of Learn, Lesson, Grow, or Growth to mean and be interchangeable with “To Become of,” “Embody,” “Expand,” or “Expansion.”
This material is presented in the Spirit of Love. It was given to me to understand that the purpose of each person’s incarnation into the physical realm and Mother Earth is to learn more about the unlimited ways to experience and to express Love and Brotherhood.
So as you read the pages...
I Pray That You Walk in Joy and Enjoy Your Walk …..
PART I
The circle And Odyssey Continues
My name is White Eagle. I have a little boy. His name is Nolayte StarShine Eagle. Tomorrow will be December 11, 2001. It will also be his sixth Birthday. I wanted to make or get him a birthday present. But, I do not know where he lives so that I can send it to him, you seeNolayte's mother left me and took him away only a couple of weeks after he was born.
Now to find her and him and be in his life, I have to get quite a lot of money for an attorney and court and the support that I will need if I can ever find where they are. Right now, I do not even know where my next rent payment or money for food will come from, except from The Creator through others in some way. Over a decade ago, long before I met Nolayte's mom I had given my Life over to be of service to the Creator. Before that, I used to try to walk in two moccasins, one being like a white person in the prevalent culture and the other as what I am, a PohTikaWah. I was never very successful in the first type of moccasins, as they did not seem to fit me very well.
My lifestyle is pretty much doing whatever I can to continue to live and still be dedicated to serving only the Will of the Creator. Most of the resources that come to me are from people that try to help me continue doing just that through donations and odd job kind of work. I used to be what some call a computer person or expert in my earlier years. But since I made that commitment in the 1980s, I have no longer been able to get that kind of work anymore. Except perhaps to keep this writing machine as I call it going, and making these books. Earlier this year the Creator had me make this website named AspiritWalker. I was able to use some of those skills in that effort and it seems to work very well. Nolayte's mom knew about all of this before she asked me to commit in the sacred union of marriage with her. She thought that I would change, I didn't though. It is now two years since I have seen Nolayte, which was only for a very short time in a fast food restaurant. That was over a year since I had previously been able to see him, for a few minutes in a shopping mall.
Many have become estranged from or will miss family and friends this and every holiday season. I pray that one takes one's feelings to heart as I do and will. Because whether they hurt or not, I would not want to not have them or become insensitive. It is risky to care and love as well as trust. And things do not always turn out like we hope or plan. But Life is a path of momentary expressions and experiences. While I still miss Jack who exited suddenly in 1968 and so many others be they family or friend, I will continue to feel blessed by the moments that I did share with each and every one of them. That is my choice and option, and it is available to any and all beings and things.
So I thank you Nolayte, Nolayte's mom, Jack, Jim, Mom, Dad, Sandy, Dayna, Heath and Jackie and their mom, Spirit, Spot, Sparkie, Hal, and so many others that have shared their Earthwalk experience with me, as well as care and Love for a time in it. I am truly wealthy from these you see, as they helped make my Life as it is and has been. And for and in that, I am most blessed and appreciative. Now whenever I feel alone, down, or sad, this or any time or season, I will keep choosing to be thankful to each of these as well as those that are now in it. I will also then choose to continue to walk that path of my Life as The Creator guides me and use what is called the Prayer Proper to continue to make choices and expressions that:
Walk in Balance with Harm to No One Being or Thing, Including Oneself!
As I begin the writing of this material, I once again have a hard time getting started, as I really do not claim to be a writer or even know what is going to be said in it. This is the twelfth book that I have been given to write though, and I continue to do such even though at this point none of the others have been published in the normal fashion of such. Actually, I was planning to write a book about Tribes earlier this year when I completed the last volume of Origins and the Medicine of Numbers after that. Also, in most if not all of the other books, I really did not plan to write about their content at all. I never did well in school and in my later years I figured out what that was perhaps. A part of the problem I feel was the fact that I do not have much memory in the normal sense. I like to tell people that I only have two brain cells left and that I gave all of the rest of them away. I tell them jokingly that I kept two so as to keep my ears apart. I also say that I do not want to have any memory. The reason for such is that I do not desire to limit the options available at any moment or about the future, by anything in the past.
Since birth, I have been able to journey backwards so to speak and view the past. Of course when I take tests in the history classes in school I did just that. I would write down the answer just as I saw it. I failed history more than twice. What I saw and wrote down was different than what they said in their history books. Another reason that I did not do well in school, outside of being girl crazy, was that I think in what I call my personal language. It is different than these small words that have so many interpretations and meanings that appear on this page. The Creator told me a long time ago that the language that I use and think in is an ancient dialect of Algonquin. The problem for me begins in that this language which has no curse words has what I call picture words. The simple word TohNaWah that is the name of my new feline partner in life will take a paragraph of these words to express and explain. A simplified idea of it might be that of a lightening storm, at night. But it is also about Passion from the Heart, Soul Purpose and dedication, Warior-manship, and a lot more than just those elements and things. Also, not only are the words in my personal language pictures, they also are pictures in motion. So I will apologize now in this material as well for the lengthy run on sentences and so forth. If it is not already obvious, I failed English in school a couple of times as well. The final, perhaps, problem that comes from my thinking in my personal language comes from the fact that the words are what I call multidimensional. In this regard the pictures that are in motion are global, not flat and linear like these words now appearing on this page. Because of this aspect, I might seem to talk in circles sort of, at least some of the time.
I remember as a child always knowing about certain things that I could not explain to others. Even if they might stop and listen, then they probably would not believe what I was given to know about anyway. This was well in advance of, as well as after, a drowning experience that I encountered at four years of age. Typical of most Medicine people, I have experienced what is called the near death experience many times in my present term of life and this has facilitated a greater awareness as well as understanding of the Spiritual as well as Physical nature of Life and the conditions of being in both realms. Oftentimes when beings experience going through the veil as I like to call it in a death circumstance, if they subsequently are given to return to the physical realm, then they usually are enhanced with a special power or gift such as in the way of being a healer or visionary. Most oftentimes as well, will occur a change in the orientation and, or, purpose of their individual life expression is also manifested so as to serve The Creator in some fashion or way.
In my own experiences of such, of which there have been several, each time I did not so much change the orientation of my life expression as I did it’s focus. I was very enabled as a Medicine Man at birth and have always been able to see into peoples bodies as well as have visions of events forthcoming and be able to journey through the veil seemingly at will. I have never lost my association to the Spirit realm at any level of Consciousness, even when taught different by the White Western Society that I grew up in. In addition to being a channeler, I also have often been blessed with healing energy, although sometimes I seem to need it more for myself than to support others in the Medicine and thereby Brotherhood Way of being on Mother Earth.
Growing up with such abilities including the moving of objects, was not always fun. This is especially true when other children would be saying or planning mean things about me, and I would read their thoughts or hear their words from even a great distance away. In my earlier years I was taught by my parents to believe and act like I was White. Or at the very least I was to be very quiet even about being Indian much less than being in the Medicine Way. My parents wanted this from me primarily so as to be accepted by others. I quickly found that my life that way was much worse than what I experienced on the other side of the veil. Even in this church that they took me to which I later sang in the choir and acolyted in, when I looked at the Light as it shone upon the cross that they had hanging there, I would simply leave and cross the veil so as to be with The Creator.
I struggled for many years trying to live the life that my parents had planned for me, but somehow it just never did work so well because I simply was not myself in it. It was only when I got older and kept going through the many death experiences that I finally realized and accepted my gifts as well as purpose in this incarnation on Mother Earth as little else became available, as well as fulfilling to me. After the last of my parents had exited the physical realm of Mother Earth, I saw how they perhaps innocently, had negatively influenced me throughout that part of my life. I later realized that this influence continued even thereafter, as my earth father became a Possessing entity and thereby negative energy and I finally chose to accept who and what I was, and to disregard the desires of them.
Throughout my early time, people would simply show up in my life that needed my support as a healer or visionary and I simply accepted the condition of it as being essentially God sent, although I was always a little curious about how they might know about that ability in me. I never challenged, nor even was curious, as to the why or how things worked as I simply trusted and accepted everything as being perfect as The Creator had planned it. I needed no more than that to be fulfilled as a willing participant. I did, however, find out some things in time that made my Understanding secure in different facets of my awareness such as when I would leave my body so as to do something in another realm. In these circumstances, my body would shut down completely unless there was another spiritual energy source associated with it, such as a protector Spirit or guide. I realized this condition when one time I left my body to do something in another realm, only to find out on my return that others were calling the ambulance, as I had no respiration or heartbeat upon my return to the physical realm. Even in the process that I was given to use in channeling other Spirits and Guides through the vessel of the body of myself, it would often affect my biology for some period of time thereafter depending upon the nature of them and their personality so to speak. I make mention of these things simply so as to give some orientation to my sense of Trust, Dedication, and Faith in The Creator and The Medicine Way.
Traditionally at birth, people would seek out a Medicine person that was a visionary so as to identify the Medicine and thereby name the newborn child, so that the parents might properly raise it to fulfill the child’s and Creator’s image or plan of, and in, itself. I named people this way for many years, giving them a name reflecting a vision provided by The Creator to me when I Prayed for it. In doing this, I simply accepted it as being the way of such and did not question either the result or the process, and I must also mention I was also quite certain as well as content in it. I then wondered one day as to “Why am I White Eagle”? I knew of the Medicine of the name and that also other beings had been or were named it, but I was simply a little curious about the why of that for myself. On many occasions, when operating out of body in other realms, I have often been guided or asked by The Creator to perform some task. Each time, I simply either did what was given or asked as to How, and never even wondered about the potential outcome. I knew that if He wanted it done by me, then I was already facilitated with all that I needed to do or perform in it. Often, I would see myself to appear in bird or Eagle form in the process and experience of such.
After some period of time and many such experiences, I would in a revelationary manner receive some insight and perhaps even Understanding as to the greater extent and nature of things, most often during Meditation or Ceremony. At this point in my journey on Mother Earth, I have received many such awareness and understandings about many diverse things. Yet I still am somewhat unsteady as to what I might be in for next, as for me and my Understanding, and this greater awareness has a deep and definite responsibility associated with it. I have found that my growth has only occurred at the deeper soul or spiritual level through such metamorphic experiences and expressions of Understanding. I have often stated that I seek not to know so much, simply to Understand and thereby grow from what I have already experienced. The Creator then interjected that I cannot truly grow the Round and thereby Proper and Medicine Way, if I only look forward or backwards. He then told me that it is only best possible if I look at things from a position and perspective that is outside of myself, and thereby in Onement so as to see the complete picture. As one might suspect, I am still trying to work on that approach.
Many years ago The Creator told me “Little One” as He likes to refer to me that way, “From now on Pray and go into your rattle or drum and seek from Me a Vision as to the beginning of each of My children and that this will be the Ever or Medicine Name that you shall give to them describing the perfect Nature of their Spirit or Soul”. He then showed me how each individual came to be. It was as if He were standing by a still pond and I was looking at the event a little ways from and above His right shoulder, like a little bird sitting on a limb of a tree. In each event, out of the forehead and Mind of Him, I would see an amorphous vibratory pattern of energy projected, as such is the very nature of thought. Next would then come out of the chest and heart of Him, a green vapor like mist of energy that stayed connected to His Heart by a golden thread. Then this cloud of green substance and energy blended and merged with the thought pattern and it became whole, real, and everlasting as it thereby was manifested or born as a True Spirit.
During my morning Meditation many years ago after expressing my curiosity about Why was I White Eagle, and When was I first on Mother Earth, I was given to see the Original event of His making of Mother Earth. I saw how during the event of it, I was flying about that area of The Great Void in my Eagle like Birdform, essentially showing off as I often did for Him by doing flying feats. I immediately became overwhelmed as I truly then did immediately remember and feel again the very profound experience of it. The Creator then again showed me the experience of that event from the outside and again off to the upper right of that happening from the very much same viewpoint as being the little bird in the tree as mentioned before. It took some time for me to realize as well as accept the whole of what was given for me to see. Actually, I must admit that I still have some doubt associated with it, as it must mean that I was obviously existent before Mother Earth. Each time that I would ask Him, He would simply confirm that suspicion, which does still leave me quite uncomfortable for perhaps many obvious reasons.
He then compassionately and jokingly also stated that perhaps I will get over it some day. I then spent some time trying to understand the significance of what was already shown to me. Finally, I asked Him again in my Morning Meditation if He would help me to better Understand how I came to be. I was then again projected outside of the arena of it so to speak, much in the manner of being an outside observer or camera mounted on the wall. Again I was situated in that same position of reference or viewpoint, being that of a short distance above, behind, and off of the right shoulder of Him.
I still recall it vividly as I write these words. These words describing it are at times very difficult to form, as the experience is very overwhelming, if one can truly imagine. The setting where I was located was a large rectangular room with one of the walls of the long sides missing. It appeared much in the manner of being some kind of cubicle kind of structure, whereby the walls went up to the ceiling, yet there was no ceiling there. There was a floor of sorts, at least there must have been something holding up the very large and long table in the middle of the room. There were some cabinets and other simple structures as I recall, but nothing specific comes to mind now, which is some years later. As I was given to see everything as it was then, I must state that the Vision was in color, however most everything was the color White it seems. The table was White. The walls were White where there were any. The door off to the left was White, and the hallway beyond it was White. The bottom or floor was White, and the perch on the table was White, as was the beautiful Eagle form on it that The Creator was fashioning like some artist or sculptor in their studio. I do not specifically recall any light source like lamps or such. The place or structure looked a lot like this:
In this experience, there just was a lot of the Whitest and softest light. It seemed to just radiate from the walls as this wonderful form of The Creator appearing like a tall as in huge, Marlon Brando kind of man in a White robe or gown with the kindest of face and expression pondered at the creation He was making, which was that of myself. The color of His skin was an off White with just a tint of Blue turning sometimes Green, Reddish, Orange, Gold, or Purple, depending upon the emotion of Him, but ever predominately White. It was not ashen White, but instead it was the purest and most vibrant White that is possible for one to imagine. As I later recall, The Creator at the time also wore some kind of White beard and cap. These appeared much like an artist might be imagined wearing, and it was also very neat and trim as was everything else that was there. It still comes to mind that there really was not that much there in this place to describe, as it was so basically simple and especially clean and tidy as The Creator wants me to say. The table seemingly took up most of the room, and The Creator stood in front of the middle of it. The perch and bird form of myself was situated closer to His side of it, rather than that of the other side. The other side was open, with only The Great Void being visibly present beyond there. The Creator said that He feels especially inspired to artistically Create as He calls it, by having the view of The Great Void present in this manner.
I felt especially overwhelmed as well as strange in this circumstance of myself. The Creator facilitated me to see and re-experience the event from not only the vantage point of being outside, but also to simultaneously sense, feel, and view it again from the inside of the bird form of myself as well. This caused me to recall and realize the whole nature of the event at a much deeper level of my Consciousness. The experience brought forth an even greater Understanding as well as awareness of the dynamics that were involved in the process of it. I also realize at this later time, that I must have been already at least partially Spiritually complete in a certain manner and way before the Creation of the bird form of myself. Obviously, there already were certain parts of myself that were available before the starting of the project so as to speak.
When I asked The Creator about such, He did confirm that it was so. He then said that what is now being described, is kind of a backtracking of the project of His making of myself. He so often shows me many things this way, such as when naming people. The Creator explained that this description is of the semi-final form of my Spiritual body development or integration, as He prefers to call the process. The Creator then explained that He simply considers it to be a refinement on His part of what was already working perfectly. He added that at any consideration, the All was already complete in its relative stage of Creation. He added that more will be described as to the initial stages of such, later in this work. During the whole of the experience of observing His making of the final or current Spiritual form of myself, The Creator also allowed for me to also in some way sense both His thoughts and feelings during the process of it as well. In this regard, I can only say that the experience was most enlightening as well as most extraordinary indeed.
I was next given to observe as He looked upon the almost finished bird form of myself, and thought for a moment about what He desired next to become a part of or in me. He then got a glimmer in His eye, and once again held out his left hand. Then from His left middle finger of it, He projected out of it, another perfect and beautiful White feather. Next, He so loving and caringly, placed it into the very back of the form of me. The Creator then stepped back a bit and looked approvingly upon His Creation. At that moment, I sensed that everything was in place and complete. I then felt Him project my Consciousness inside of the bird form, after which I could see through the eyes of it. The eyes were of a Whitish Green and Golden color on the outside, with the rest of the form being of the purest of White. I next heard and felt Him think about what was to be next, and then I felt it as He gave me vision and I could see as well as sense the image of Him before me. He then smiled so pleasantly as He saw what He had made and was indeed pleased.
The Creator then pondered for a moment and gave a little pause. Then once again I saw the twinkle in His eye and suddenly I felt Him give me mobility, and so I turned my head about. I next stretched each wing to see what it felt like, after which I then moved my feet. It was so wonderful to feel what He had done to and for me, and I was so very grateful. I saw that He was truly pleased and proud of what He had done in Creating the beautiful and perfect bird form of myself. Once again He gave a pause, wondering if it was indeed complete. Thereafter, I again felt as something else came from the eye of Him and it became embodied in me. I wondered what it was. In a telepathic kind of way, He let me know it was sound or voice. I pondered as to what to next do. In no moment of the experience did I feel awkward or afraid, only in total awe, Love, and wonderment. I must mention that in this event, time, and place, there was very little as mentioned in the arena of it. Absent was any idea or Consciousness to wind or air, water, food or any need to sustain or express oneself, only that everything was possible with no sense of need. There was only The Creator, the structure that we were in, The Great Void, openness, unlimited possibility, and my bird form and also obviously my Free Will.
I thought for a moment or what might truly have been an eternity, as both were the same then and there. The first idea that then came from within me was to try to please Him with this new gift that He had just given and made in me. So I gathered up the greatest expression that I could gather, in the new body form that He had made in and for me. I then reared back and gave out the greatest cross utterance of a “Hey” like Squawk that I could muster or make.
The Creator then reeled back with a great roar of laughter, and I saw how what I had just done, did so please Him. I felt so much thankfulness and Love for Him in that moment, and still do now. Maybe, that is why it seems that I have been trying to do the same ever since. I next, in my great show off way, went zooming out of the room and through The Great Void. I tried to do flying and acrobatic tricks in a further desire to please and make Him glad He made me, in the most passionate and respectful of way. I must mention that during this experience, I did not see or sense of anything else being there. However, there might have been other things or beings in other rooms in the facility that He and I shared at that time. I do not remember anything at this time about the other rooms that were there, except that I know there were, and are, some. I will add also that from the vantage or viewpoint of The Great Void, at a great distance one can see the facility as a modular kind of structure. It is suspended magically in nothingness and it radiates the kindest glow of the Whitest of light. One can find it anywhere in The Great Void quite easily, as that is all that is there. It appears much like this:
I was then given to reflect upon the many times that I would be given to journey through the veil. Most times I would transform myself into my bird form, and simply project myself upward and forward, to wherever He wanted me to be. Most often I see things with my view being from eyes that view things over the top part of a great beak, which I see as well as sense as being there in front of me. In reflection about the circumstance of the Creation of my bird form, from the outward appearance it looked very much the same as the present physical form of an Eagle. Yet, it is all White colored and seeming to glow in a certain way.
On being inside of the bird form, it was not dense like the physical body that my Spirit now inhabits, made from Mineral Spirit and Water. This is probably because it’s substance was made from a different material and way. The bird form was already fully developed as one might say. It was fashioned in a condition that can only be considered as mature in every sense and way. On being inside of the bird form, there is no sense to bone or muscle or the sense of taste or smell. Instead of these, a different set of senses is present, with both vision and feeling being enhanced in many ways. As I was flying about showing off for Him, there was a great sense of speed and flight, yet with the absence of air. One can only imagine what it felt like in that I did not need to flap my wings to move about. However, I could move or flap my wings if I wanted to experience such. As one might imagine, I did often test out the effects of all parts of this wonderful vehicle that He had made for my Spirit to express myself in. Of course, I took great joy in watching and sensing His pleasure as I discovered and experienced more about this vessel that He had just made for myself. To accomplish each maneuver, I would simply think about a potential of expression and make a choice to try it. I would then gather some type of energy or force that was always present and available, and simply channel that as an expression of the Will of myself. In so doing, I would then move about and perform so very easily, although not always so very graceful, at least for a while.
In watching The Creator and the scene from my vantage point outside, I then discovered perhaps the Why that He had made me, as I saw the great satisfaction and joy that it brought to Him. It often still makes me cry when I think about it all.
Since the time that The Creator told me to first "Write This Book" which led to the genesis of the Material called the Medicine Way, I have wondered why He would desire such from me. Certainly there are many more people qualified to do this, especially in the English language. Then I remembered what The Creator showed me as being my Beginning Medicine. A picture of my Beginning Medicine is:
Like all of the picture words in my personal language, this symbol too is multidimensional and in motion. Basically, it is the symbol of the Creator and four lightning bolts that converge beneath Him. The four lightning bolts form the Purpose and message, which is that of Bringing the Word and Will of the Creator to the mountaintop. No matter what my condition is, or where I am, this is most what I desire to do and be, period. Whether I am incarnated or not, this is what I most desire and wish to accomplish, no matter what. So like myself at this point, one might also find oneself thinking or saying:
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GREAT POP
Every since my childhood, I have had trouble with the word God. Perhaps it is simply because the word God is the word Dog spelled backwards. Another reason is the idea promoted about God in most of the religions that I have encountered or studied. "Allah" seems better to me, as does the "Great Spirit". These at least are names of a sort. Also, these references at least allow for some personality to be considered. And to me, the word God simply does not. I also feel that this title, verses name, is probably intentional. It is sort of like the word "Boss". As an underling in a large corporation that is operating in the hierarchical structuring that I have experienced, one certainly would not be able to, or invited to, casually talk to the "Boss" whenever you desired. Nope, the "Boss" is busy right now, some other underling will say. Or, the "Boss" does not have time for chit-chat or trivial conversation. The "Boss" has more important things to do. Yes, these are the responses that all individuals in the corporate world of the prevalent culture have experienced at times, as have I.
Sadly, this is what is promoted in most of the prevalent Religions in the current culture as well. And not just about "God" either! In fact, some of the supposedly leaders and support personnel of these "Organizations", are even less available for anyone to interact with than the "Boss" of a large corporation. Would you like to have a friendly chat with the Pope? Or how would you like to sit down for a friendly chat with a Bishop? When you think about it, in reality there is very little difference between the operations of most of the Religions in the prevalent culture and the corporations of the same, such as IBM, Microsoft, or Exxon. This perhaps is one of the reasons that I personally quit participating in them on a regular basis. Actually, I consider all religions correct that do not exclude another. Of course that one criteria, makes most of them incorrect to me. Sadly, it seems that most of the available religious organizations are little different in their structure and goals, than the corporate entities of the prevalent culture. Obviously, their ambitions seem parallel, as do their practices. I feel that perhaps this is primarily because both are founded upon hierarchical structures and competition in some manner or way.
After I drowned at the age of four and came back to life, my parents went looking for a religion. One could liken the experience to that of shopping or looking for a college to enroll in. They first took us to the church that the neighbors were attending. It was Presbyterian I believe, and we only went there for a little while. My dad then decided that we should be Episcopalian instead, even though I was already baptized in that other one. My dad, whom I now refer to as being my earth father, was like that though. He had a way of always getting what suited him best. I was Ok with that though, as I understood that he was really mostly afraid. I found out later that he was actually afraid of me as well as for me, especially after that drowning experience. I later found out that I had died a year before drowning as well. I believe it was from what some call this scarlet fever. Of course as you can tell from reading this, each time I did come back to life.
Like most children, I idolized the big people, including my parents. However, my earth father was quite insecure. I now remember that was born with two, what are called “Club Feet”. They were operated on after I was born, and have worked perfectly every since. However, as a infant in the crib, I had to wear these casts and braces for a while. I remember someone getting into trouble from my earth father for picking me up one time. My earth father never allowed me to be held or nurtured. Even my mom's parents or family were not allowed to touch me when we visited them. So as one might now imagine, I was pretty insecure in my early time. Especially with the pattern of my earth father being all I was exposed to for a while.
I can still vividly remember the day that some new people moved into the house across the street. They had three boys with the youngest being my age. Later I was to realize, all of the people in that neighborhood were of German descent and so were these new ones. All of the neighbors had that in common, but here I was a dark skinned, skinny, insecure, little boy, wanting to be accepted by someone or just somehow fit in. This new little boy that was the same age as myself was fat. Yep, he was as fat as I was skinny. This happened around the time that I started going to this different elementary school that I mentioned, and he ended up going to an even newer and different one than I.
This new little boy got teased a lot by his older brothers for being fat. They would fight and wrestle around a lot as well. He would then take that out on me. I went home crying many times because he would use his weight to make that happen. My dad decided that I should learn to box not too long after that. However, I never wanted to hurt anyone at all. I did not want to be hurt either for that matter, but somehow that did not seem to make any difference. The one boxing match that I was put in, they put me in the ring with about the only friend that I had in that school. They told me to hit him. I did, and he cried. I cried then too and felt real bad because I hurt him and made him cry. None of it made any sense to me. I did not box anymore.
I was always tall for my age, and this did not seem to help either. The first day of kindergarten in that school, the teacher had us go out to the playground. She brought over this other little boy in the class and introduced us to each other. He was a lot shorter and stockier than me. I said Hi, hoping to make a friend. Then he hit me in the belly and knocked the wind right out of me. I did not like school at all from that point on. I would even make myself sick so that I did not have to go. There was only one reason that I did go back it seems. There was a little girl named Sally in my class. She had the blondest of hair, and I was in Love! If it were not for the girls, I never would have gone to school. That is not if I had anything to say about it. Yep, since early childhood, I have always been fascinated with girls and women!
I was born in Oklahoma. My earth father moved us to that subdivision in Texas when I was one year old. My mom's parents lived in Oklahoma and like my earth father, they hid any part of their Native American background. Nope, in Oklahoma being "Indian" was worse than being "Negro". Growing up, there were still many signs in Oklahoma that said "No Injuns Allowed". I was always a lot darker skinned than any of my relatives except for my dad who was Algonquin. In Oklahoma my mom parents had three children, all of them were girls and my mom was the first born of the three. But in that time and culture, what really mattered was being the first grandson, and that certainly was not me.
Nope the first and favored grandson was named Sandy and he was the apple of my mom's father's eye. Sandy’s mom had a plan early on, and she stayed real close to the inheritance to come. It eventually worked out for her too. She even moved into that tiny little place north of Oklahoma City. I was born in Oklahoma City right after the Second World War. My mom met my earth father in Washington D.C. She was his secretary in the military. He had a job in intelligence there, designing some stuff for the military. My earth father moved back to Oklahoma City with my mom right after the war. Understanding my earth father's behavior, I was not ever what they call “Close” to those people in Oklahoma.