Egotrism

Written by

F.V. Fargas

Cover Art by

Alice B

Editing by

Mihai Andrian

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© 2010 F.V.Fargas

Contents

Dedication

This book is dedicated to my Gods, my family, friends and foes who have taught me everything I had to know for writing this book.

I would specially like to dedicate this book to all my associates and friends of the Left-Hand-Path, especially T.C., Dardanus, Hase, Xophier, Nero, Myrmydon and S.Connolly.

May the Gods keep you close now and forever under their wings !

About the book

The idea of writing this book that would cover most of my life ideologies came quite recently after being innumerably changed from ideology to ideology in the last 3 years (calculating by each year, there would be at least one ideology per year. Beat that!). I tried to write it for more than 7 times but it never satisfied me or reached half of my expectations because it was always incomplete (and still is). But I came to the conclusion that any effort is important no matter how great it might be. Thus I decided to write this small (yes I know) book and try to cover at least the philosophical part of that which I like to call Egotrism, a belief that I invented one year ago.

Why I wrote this book? Out of proclivity rather than choice. There are too many people that ask me about my beliefs and after speaking of the same things over and over with hundreds of people it gets nerve-racking. Not to mention it is impractical to keep talking of the same things over and over, and there’s also the possibility of me forgetting some ideas on the way.

So, I though that if they are so interested, they might as well read this book. This book is basically something different from all that you read about Life, or at least I hope so. It is simply what I have learned, experienced and felt ever since I can remember. It is my belief, my philosophy, my religion, my life.

What you won’t read about too much in this book however, is the ‘practical’ Egotrism, the rituals and stuff. There will probably be another book for that. But only if this one is well received. I guess nobody wants to write books for himself. There will be, however, some practical exercises after finishing with a topic.

This work, though not a masterpiece, could be used as a guide to a more personal approach to Life and Religion and a more modern approach as well.

You’ll learn why and how I stick to this belief and why I urge others to do it as well. It’s pretty interesting.

As Satanic as it may appear, this book does not represent the religion called Satanism but it has been clearly influenced by it.

This is not a religious book, but a spiritual, philosophical and practical book and therefore I shall not say or try to influence in any way the reader’s choice for a religion or divinity. However, you will learn that Egotrism, just like life itself, is a balanced path. In other words, there’s no God or Satan, no Black and White, just a shade of grey.

I repeat: This book is NOT about CHRISTIANITY or SATANISM. If you are a convinced religious person or a traditionalist who rejects the new this book might not be for you.

Without further ado, lets keep going and learn that which is to learn about EGOTRISM. - F.V. Fargas

How I came up with Egotrism

I do not know if Egotrism can be a religious path, but it is certainly a movement of religious essence. As a life guide for myself it turned out to be more than just an ideology. It became my own religious path.

I believe that everyone must be aware of the importance of his religion in his/her life. Religion should not be taken as a group in which you choose to join, in order to find a place in society. From my point of view, religion is the destiny of each man’s soul, it is his way of life and the highway to Death. Yes, religion can change your way of life, way of thinking. Unlike atheism, religion offers you something more. It offers you a new theory, a “new” pair of eyes, which will help you see the importance of spirituality in life and of the spiritual evolution. Of course, every religion is different. Every religion shows you a different image on life, on the spirit and on yourself. Christianity is different from Satanism, Judaism is different from Hinduism, and so on. Also, each person is different from another and has the right to choose his own religion according to his feelings or thoughts. As you get older, you start seeing life differently and also the religion in which you belong. And that’s the time when only YOU have the right to change your path. That’s what I did too. I have chosen what I’ve considered to be best for my soul, I’ve chosen something I was truly connected with and the path I have needed the most.

Egotrism took birth out of many paths I’ve studied and some that I have followed. From studying and reading, from the people I have met and learned from, from experience and from maturity, I took the best I got and put it all together. There were books, magazines, papers, websites that I read with a clear mind. There were people that I have listened to with an opened soul. But experience and age were the most important, now I see. There were people indeed who have helped me a lot on the way, starting from my character and attitude that they helped recover and correct, to even learning how to write grammatically correct and express myself, talk, think, behave. A lot is still ‘under construction’, evolution is ever changing and I am still young.

If your guess is that I have something to do with creepy shit such as Satanism and Demons, you’d be right. These were part of my life for almost half of it, and still play an important role in it, just as Christianity and God were for the other half of my very young existence. How it all happened, I’ll explain right now.

The “dark” faith (so to speak), embraced my soul 9 years ago. Since then I have been studying Satanism, with my soul and mind, with an appetite for knowledge and a strong attraction. A strong attraction resulting from the spiritual connection I had with Satan since birth. Yes, I’ve always been spiritually connected to Satan, just as I was with Jehovah (God). Since I was a child I believed in God. We were very close and indeed He played a major role in my life. I have been a very devoted follower to both Gods, in separate times of my life. I always took religion and spirituality seriously for I knew and felt it’s importance and impact in my life. I consider that religion has the role to help the individual to exceed any limit in his way and to evolve both spiritually and intellectually. For that reason, I was determined to leave Christianity behind for the stupid thought that it wasn’t giving me what I was needing at that time.

It is true, that while I was a Christian I was very anxious and frustrated. I felt spiritually empty and vulnerable. And compared to the period I have devoted myself to the Devil, I can say that the “dark” side helped me much more. What I failed to understand all this time, and luckily got it at last few months ago, is that God was not responsible for the happenings in my life and that I was disappointed by myself and not by Him. I have expected from God what most people expect from an employee or better yet, from a slave. It is true I haven’t asked for money, a house and a wife, but like any man I have asked for guidance and strength. These two have been instead provided by Satan, psychologically explained through auto-suggestion and spiritually explained through channeling.

I began to see Christianity, honestly enough, for what it really is. A religion that would keep me away from spiritual evolution, a weak religion, a limited religion, without logic and spirituality. I’ve seen with my own eyes how religion can affect your way of life and thinking. I’ve been a Christian for about 10 years. Because I was forced to. Especially my dad who is quite a profound Christian, forced me to follow his religion. And that’s what I did. But not with my soul . Because it was my soul who proved me that this is a false, satiric and revolting religion . I observed how Christianity can destroy your soul and mind . In my childhood, I went to churches and monasteries from time to time, and what I have seen there, simply shocked me. A bunch of people praying desperately to God, in vain . Going to the altar, kissing a crucifix with a tortured man , who besides this is almost naked . Leaving their slobber on the cross until another one comes and puts his mouth on it . I was...totally disgusted .

For 10-11 years I was constrained to swallow this religion .

Christianity the religion of the people, is nothing more than a manipulating phenomenon for the weak. I’ve seen this and gave blame, unconsciously enough, to God which I associated with this sickness represented by the Church and the Bible, forgetting my PERSONAL business with Him. There is a big difference between spirituality and religion, and the best example for this is the way God acts upon the adept and the way Christianity does. I made the mistake to accuse them both.

In time, I’ve changed. Disgusted and antichristian to the bone, I’ve chosen the exact opposite. I chose Satanism, a religion that urges the adept to be confident, autodidact, intelligent… that urges the adept to be a fighter, not a slave.

Now, don’t get me wrong.. I don’t see Satanism as a refuge for those who are unsatisfied by God, or a revenge on the world and God.. Like, a plan B, a second choice . Hating God and being antichristian is, indeed, a satanic act, but for me that religion did not limit itself at this. It was far more than just, inversed Christianity. It was far more than listening to black metal and screaming “Fuck God ! Hail Satan!”.. that is shit. You can look absolutely normal, you can act normal, you can listen to Shakira and still be a Satanist . What was most important, at least for me, was the relationship with Satan which I always wanted to get bigger and bigger. I wanted Him to be a part of my life, as God “didn’t have the necessary disposition for that”. I wanted to show the world that Satanists are far better than they think. To make them proud when shouting “Hail Satan!”, knowing that the others will not have anything to reproach to them or treat them as enemies but as someone superior.

Indeed, anyone can be mad at God. Anyone can shout “Fuck God ! Hail Satan!”.. anyone can kneel and pray, do a ritual.. etc. But LIVING your life as a Satanist, dedicating every second of it to Satan and enjoying every second of it, trying to become better and better, showing the world that a Satanist is not a madman but a superior man, someone who can come in front of the world saying he is a Satanist without the risk of being mocked or attacked because he is too fucking frustrated.. all of this is what makes the true Satanic follower. So compared to Christianity, I’ve seen this as the right path and followed it without objection.