Lives of a Soul

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Lives of a Soul: A Metaphysical Autobiography of Your Soul…and Mine

Copyright © 2008 by Courtney Lodge (www.courtneylodge.com)

Contact Courtney by e-mail: cglodge@yahoo.com

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This work is protected by international copyright laws and agreements, and with provisions provided for through the World Intellectual Property Organization (WIPO) and the Jamaica Intellectual Property Organization (JIPO).

Written and produced in Kingston, Jamaica, 2008.

• ISBN-10: 1439232989

• ISBN-13: 978-1439232989

Dedication

Lives of a Soul: A Metaphysical Autobiography of Your Soul…and Mine is dedicated to everyone who has a Soul; therefore, this book is dedicated to You and all of humanity.

Many persons die with the regret that they did not do more with their lives. This book is committed to transforming lives and Souls…for good! We are on the cusp of discovering our new, higher level of spirituality, and your soul-powered assistance will help humanity to understand and utilize the awareness for the benefit of all.

My efforts are further dedicated to the lives and memories of Ulric Vandelier Lodge, Matilda Medorah “Aunt Madge” Lodge, and Doctor Albert Michael Greve. Your Souls continue to guide and inspire me on a daily basis. Thanks. Albert, your desire for the sustainable [spiritual and environmental] development of the world is still alive and well!

My wife, Rosia Young-Lodge, children (Anika, Britoni and Britani), and mother (Melvina Shirley), this one’s for you! Love you all!!!

Lives of a Soul

A Metaphysical Autobiography of Your Soul…and Mine

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Courtney Lodge

Contents

(Flow of the Lives of a Soul)

PREFACE

Dear reader, yes You, About what time does the Sun normally rise where you live? [Pause for a moment and answer the question.]

What is your answer? Ask anyone the same question. Almost without thinking the individual will likely respond in a manner similar to the following: “About 5:50 a.m.” Did you answer in this fashion? If so, Do you actually believe yourself when you answered in this way? Is this what the person that you asked really believes? Could it be that this type of answer is based on how we are programmed to respond? Or, could it be that we just answer in this manner because we know this is the type of response expected?

We all know by now that the Sun does not rise or set. We all are aware that this is an optical illusion, and may be even an intellectual delusion or deception. We all know that it is the Earth which is moving, not the Sun. Despite this knowledge, we continue to be trapped in old, conventional language and lost in out-dated Earth-centric beliefs.

Similarly, ask anyone about his spirituality and you are likely to get a programmed response. Most persons will either ignore what they now know to be true, or may even be in denial of their new-found realities.

Lives of a Soul is about helping us to rid ourselves of these programmed responses and to open our hearts and minds to what we already know to be true—we are an unending part of an infinitely large universe.

You are likely to be one of the over four million persons who will read this book and immediately recognize it as a parallel of your own life…err, lives. If you are, you will see instantly that you could have written this metaphysical autobiography because you have been having the same experiences. You will see that my experiences are your experiences and vice versa. Some persons do not know what the truth is, and they don’t know that they don’t know. You too have been struggling with your spirituality, but deep down you know that you know what the truth is. Based on the biases of your culture, our culture, you prefer to not reveal these “unconventional” experiences to others. You can remember occasions when you were so very clear as to who you are and why you are here on this planet. However, your thoughts have either been suppressed by others, or you have chosen to suppress or ignore them. It is time for us to break the chains of this mental and intellectual manipulation, domination and slavery.

This is why this book was written. It was written for you. It was written by you. It is being written by you. Each thought that you have about each sentence or idea in this book is helping to shape the true meaning of this work. This book will have no meaning without you and your interactions. The “truths” in this book will become your truths the moment you internalize its contents and allow its message to assist in guiding you. This does not mean that you will be exposed to anything that you don’t already know at the Soul level, but it does mean that the information herein will be the key that will help you to unlock the knowledge that is otherwise locked away in the secret recesses of your brain, intellect, mind and Soul. You will be allowing your true self to reawaken to its magnificent nature. It is time that you allow your true self to come to the fore. It is most important that you take action now to assist in bringing this message to the world. The world needs you and your determination to help us to become more aware of the existence of our Souls.

Over three million other persons all across the world will also read, or attempt to read this book, but they will not immediately accept the relevance of its message. Instead, they will deliberately push it aside because of fear of facing what they consider to be an esoteric unknown, or out of fear of recognizing their true greatness. They will continue to allow their minds to be shackled by the opinions of ill-advised or manipulative systems and people. Many individuals crave personal power, but not the type that will ask of them to question their cultural norms. “If the book won’t cause me to question my religious beliefs, or cause me to doubt my religious leaders’ credibility, then I might read it,” some of these persons would say.

The good news is that this book is about helping you to remember that which you already know to be true. It is not about casting doubts on your beliefs, but about verifying them. It is about turning on the Lights that will chase the darkness of Soul ignorance away. It is about enlightenment about matters of the Soul, your Soul, our Soul. When you are exposed to undeniable facts about your reality, you may choose, voluntarily so, to alter some of your beliefs.

Each of us on the planet can write an autobiography about our physical existence. This would undoubtedly be an autobiography that is unique to us. No one else can have the exact same experiences in this matter-energy, time-space continuum that we define as life on Earth. This is so because no two pieces of matter or particles of energy can occupy the same space at the same time. However, if we were each to write our metaphysical autobiography, we would recognize that the same principles of relativity do not exist. Metaphysically, we are all occupying the same “space” at the same “time”. This is so because in reality, we are neither matter, nor energy. We are the immeasurable substance from which all matter and energy are distilled. Matter and energy are but two manifestations of our realities. We can be bound by neither space nor time. Our metaphysical autobiographies would be astonishing! In the metaphysical world we are all one. Therefore, our metaphysical autobiographies would all be the same; none would be unique in its truest sense. We are all different, but we are all the same. Out of many Souls, we are really just one Soul. The Jamaican Reggae artiste extraordinaire, Jimmy Cliff, in his song “We All Are One” explains it beautifully that, “We all are one, we are the same person. I’ll be you, you’ll be me….”

This book is not an autobiography of physical reality, but of a metaphysical reality, a metaphysical autobiography. The story loosely follows the chronology of the author’s current incarnation, but is nonetheless derived from a metaphysical perspective and source. This is the story of the Lives of a Soul, your Soul…and mine

This is not a fictional work, but then again, it is not non-fictional either. It is neither fiction nor non-fiction; it is both. Some may try to classify this as a fictional work that is based on a true story or some other traditional type of classification that incorporates religion, spirituality, inspiration, motivation, history, philosophy, esoteric philosophy, science fiction, autobiography, etc. By embracing and synthesizing a broad range of writing styles, plus allowing a natural and unalloyed outpouring of my Soul, a fresh, distinct and decidedly unique and rarified “opus magna” has emerged. The reality is that this summa cannot truly be categorized, as any such attempt would be a limitation, a restriction, a curtailment of that which cannot be limited, restricted or curtailed. The Soul is boundless, infinite, eternal, immeasurable and inestimable. The unconventional use of language in this book, is only one such indicator of its uniqueness.

Soul Language Training—Use of “I&I”

Translating “none-sensical” or none-sensory Soul language, “Soulese”, into English Language without arriving at a non-sensical/not-sensical, or illogical interpretation has its challenges. In fact, the biggest challenge “I-man” faced when writing this book was in translating information from Soulese to English Language. In order to make the work flow logically and make sense to you, the readers, much effort had to go into streamlining or otherwise adorning the message in academic or colloquial verbiage. The word “nonsense”, for example, is not the same as “none-sense”, but your dictionary won’t be able to tell you the difference. “Nonsense”/not-sense means an idea or action that makes no sense to the mind, or is otherwise foolish, stupid, illogical or absurd. “None-sense”, however, means something that is perfectly in order, but cannot be detected by our five senses or interpreted by our brain. A none-sensory stimulus, for example, is one that does impact the thoughts, behaviour, health, and environment, but cannot be detected by five-sensory human beings, or even the devices that they make. More appropriate, Soul-based languages would have made the work much more succinct and precise.

Excluding the USA and Canada, Jamaica is the largest English-speaking country in the western hemisphere. Jamaica is a former British Colony, so English is the official language. “Patois” [pronounced “Pat-wah”] is the indigenous language of Jamaican people, but because the word “Patois”, which has French origins, literally means “foreign language”, “idiom” or “tongue”, I prefer to refer to our language as “Jamaicanese”. Jamaicanese is not a foreign language; it is the mother tongue of Jamaicans. The Rastafarians’ further fine-tuning of Jamaicanese, I call “Rastafarianese”. The use of these languages will hopefully facilitate better understanding of the true meaning of the message.

“I&I”, or “I and I” [pronounced “I ‘n’ I”] is a profound Jamaican, Rastafarian linguistic innovation. The Rastafarian community is a Soul-driven group that has refused to be limited by conventional thinking, behaviour or language. They know that each human being has at least two simultaneous existences: spiritual and physical. We are dimorphous. Like a Geminean, we have a geminate—i.e. a double--existence. We each have a Soul that simultaneously exists in vivo and in vitro—within our bodies and outside of our bodies. When the Rastas speak of the Soul, they use the pronoun “I” because they know that their true identity is in the immortal spiritual realm. When they speak of their physical human selves, they use the Rastafarianese pronoun “I-man”, to indicate the mortal “man” that they are. In Rastafarianese, “I&I” literally means “my Soulself and my human self combined”, or “I and I”. So, when a Rastafarian, Bob Marley, for example, says, “I&I love you”, he would actually be communicating that both his Soul and his human self love you. This is a more powerful love than when the average person says, “I love you”. “I&I” therefore, is a “collective pronoun” which is much more powerful than “I” or “I-man” alone. “I&I” helps us to remember, with each and every utterance, that our human existence must serve the purpose of our Souls. “I&I” ensures alignment of our physical and spiritual realities. The English Language currently does not have the type of vocabulary needed to sufficiently and succinctly express otherworldly matters such as the Soul. “I&I” is getting closer to the type of human language that is needed to better explain matters of the Soul.

The Lives of a Soul is written from several perspectives: “I” (my Soul), “I-man” (my human self), and “I&I” (both Soul and human selves). For simplicity and reader-friendliness, the author has perverted these Jamaicanese, Rastafarianese concepts. The “I” in this book is used in the conventional English Language context, as a pronoun for the physical human author, Courtney Lodge. This usage of “I” therefore is the Rastafarian equivalent of “I-man”, instead of “I”, the Soul.

In the Lives of a Soul, “I&I” is used to represent the author’s Soulself, and/or the combination of his Soulself and human self. His Soul-aligned, or Soul-aware self. Observe that I&I takes the same grammatical form and usage as the “I” in English. So, for example: “I&I am happy to know that after reading this book you will start speaking some Jamaicanese. You will now realize that I&I am your friend and your Soul guide.”

Once you become Soul aware, you will literally stop using the English “I” because you will know that “I”, the human being, cannot exist without the Soul. Once you become more aware of the nature of your Soul, you will never want to ignore it again, so you will change your thought processes, and your language, to reflect this new-found enlightened state of being.

The “I-man” term is used sparingly and for emphasis only, especially when there might be uncertainty as to who is speaking; Soul or human. “I-man” creates the distinction that it is I, the physical human being, who is talking at the time.

This will be a fun-filled experience in learning some Jamaicanese and in learning some Soulese.

Please, do find a comfortable place before you start reading the Lives of a Soul. Once you begin reading you will start having recollections of your own life and eventually your own Soul. You will feel as if you are the author. You will get the distinct impression that you too have lived the same metaphysical life of the author. You will be reading your own forgotten or yet to be lived biography.

WELCOME & INTRODUCTION

Welcome to the Lives of a Soul. This is likely to be the most important and most relevant work on the Soul that you will ever read. This conversation with you is so special because in it you will discover secret knowledge about the evolutionary development and strengthening of your own Soul. The information shared is largely from the perspective of my individual Soul that is a part of the larger Soul Family of which you too are a part. This is your story, through my eyes, my spiritual eyes. This is the foundation upon which you can, and will, write the metaphysical autobiography of your own individual Soul.

We are on the cusp of a new, more powerful stage of the evolution of the collective Soul of mankind. You are blessed to have come here to these pages at this time, so that you can see how you have been assisting, or need to assist, in creating a critical mass of Soul aware individuals. The entire human race, to some degree, has been waiting with bated breath for this period in history. We have been waiting to shift our level of Soul consciousness to the point where we can recognize and maximize the fact that we are all one. We are one Soul. Out of many Souls, we are one Soul! We are many Souls of the same family. We all have the same spiritual, or more accurately, the same “Soulical” parentage. We know this instinctively, but before now, we did not have the wherewithal to know this consciously.

Before now we were groping aimlessly in the dark and hoping to find our way. We were looking for a light at the end of the tunnel, but none was readily forthcoming. There have been glimpses of hope. There have been steps in the right direction. There have been able and willing spiritual and non-spiritual guides, but something was missing. There was a gap.

Until now, we had a broad, general idea of what was needed to get humanity to the levels of Soul consciousness that we so anxiously seek. Up to this time the ingredients which were missing were puzzling to us.

In the Lives of a Soul we will, together, illuminate the way to discover that the ingredients that we so longingly sought “out there” were always within us. We will find out, together, that unless we visit and understand the origin and evolution of our own individual Souls, then we cannot truly understand all the other works that have been produced on this topic.

By examining the autobiography of my Soul, together, we will explore how our Souls came to be what they are now and how our Souls’ desires have led us to where we are now.

It is no secret that we all have bodies, brains, intellects, and minds. What appears to still be a secret to some is the fact that we each have a Soul, without which our bodies, brains, intellects and minds would not exist in the same manner. Not only that these aspects of our physical and non-physical realities would not exist as they do, but there would be almost no reason for them to exist. We will come to know that the Soul led to the creation of all that there is, was or will be.

Some of the disconcerting things that we will discover include the reality that the slave has become the slave master, and that we have allowed the trappings of physical manifestations of ourselves to dominate our lives to the detriment of the development of our Souls. Our physical humanity is oftentimes given precedence over our non-physical spirituality. The brain has learned how to dominate the body, intellect and mind and has therefore disconnected the spiritual umbilicum that once connected the Soul to the body. The body no longer receives the intended nourishment and sustenance from the Soul as was originally planned, as the brain and its ego have taken over what was intended to be the job of the Soul. We have become a brain-controlled, brain-washed, brain-dominated people. The brain has evolved to the point where the ideas it is able to generate appear more real to us than our spiritual reality is. The brain has been a major source of psychosomatic illness and Soulsomatic discord. We have allowed the brain and body which were made to serve the Soul to develop into a cruel and selfish master of our lives, through the manipulation and control of our interaction and communication with our Souls. With the guidance of a detective who has conducted most detailed Soul-based investigations, you are about to uncover the reality that your brain has been sabotaging the development of your Soul, but better yet, you will also get to know what you can do to change this undesirable situation. Whereas it is irrefutable that the brain is a tyrannical master, you must never forget that it can also be a most useful and obedient servant.

Indeed, you have come to the right place at the right time, and not by coincidence either. You have come here through the power of your Soul, the guidance of your Soul. All you have to do now is to ensure that you enter the world of the Lives of a Soul with an open and receptive mind. You will be able to gather much of the information that many others have failed to grasp on previous occasions in other works. The primary power behind this work is that it will be tapping into your own Soul and revealing to you realities that were imprisoned within your brain or impeded by your brain. Additionally, you will be able to create, for yourself, new, unique and astounding thoughts that will help with the development of humanity.

We welcome everyone with open arms, open minds, and open Souls. This work will serve as an introduction to matters of the Soul to the uninitiated, Soul neophytes. Without being condescending or seemingly arrogant, the material presented will serve as a training wheel for the new riders. This is delicately balanced so that more advanced or even professional riders will not get bored or feel as if they have been demoted to training school. The experience will reinforce and augment their previous work on Soul development, and introduce a new, invigorating, Soul-powered paradigm.

The Lives of a Soul is a dynamic book that speaks to all types of audiences, without leaving anyone behind. The Lives of a Soul is a history book, a philosophical treatise, a technological experiment, a religious discourse, a physics manual, a study on biology, a debate on creation vs evolution, a story book for kids, a motivational guide for employees, a training course for magicians, a manifesto for Soul awareness, and so much more. This potpourri of themes all have one common foundation—the enhancement of my Soul…and yours. This diversity of topics and writing styles only hint at the multifaceted nature of the Soul. The Soul has no boundaries and that is exactly why the Lives of a Soul was designed to open up our Soul awareness, as opposed to put strictures on thoughts, understanding and creativity.

Other authors have successfully introduced and oriented readers to some aspects of how the Soul works. Other authors have focused on explaining why the Soul exists. Together, these authors have guided others on the skills and attitudes necessary to effectively grow Soul-wise.

The Lives of a Soul speaks to the skills and attitudes as well, but emphasizes the missing link: knowledge. Without appropriate foundation knowledge, the right attitudes and right skills alone will produce only temporary and superficial results. The Lives of a Soul closes this gap by leading you to first-hand knowledge and experience of Soul development. Notice that you are the one who will discover your own truths through a process of leading you to pull the information out of your own Soul. The Latin word that gave rise to the English word “educate” is “ēducere”, which means “to lead out” or “to train”. You already know, at the Soul level, everything that you will read in this book.

The Lives of a Soul will help you “to lead out”, “to draw out” and provide fresh air to your suffocating knowledge about Soul awareness. Of course, the words used to explain the situations may be uniquely arranged, as no other author will be able to replicate my exact thought processes. Even though you will read concepts that may sound new and previously not consciously known to you, the truth is that everything in these pages is simply a reminder. The simple purpose of this book therefore is to provide you with scenarios that will help you to lead your subconscious Soul knowledge to the conscious level of full awareness…to put your insightful Soul communication in full sight, or “infullsight”. Infullsight and insightful communication with and through your Soul can be achieved through practise. Once you are aware, you can personally reproduce and verify your Soul knowledge. Without personal verification, your sabotaging brain will likely relegate what is purported to be Soul knowledge to the realms of strange or unmentionable opinions. Without Soul awareness, Soul knowledge will continue to be shoved to the abyss of the subconscious because this knowledge is mostly classified by the brain as being esoteric gibberish. Assisting you in closing this knowledge gap is an important intention of the Lives of a Soul.

With this in mind, permit me the pleasure of introducing you to the structure and themes of this seminal work on intimately knowing your Soul and the underpinnings of such knowledge.

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Your tour of the Lives of a Soul flows along a chronological path, but many of the chapters may be read independently. This independent-but-interdependent interaction creates a balanced energy that can only be disturbed by your own reactions.

The first six chapters explore life before, during and immediately after birth into the current incarnation. Utilizing Soul-generated knowledge that cannot otherwise be obtained, we get to examine why you are who you are and how you contributed to your current state of existence. You predetermined your life and decided that it should be exactly as it is now because that is best for your Soul. So, contrary to any opinion your brain may have now on the subject of the way your life is progressing, you will find that you are actually doing exceptionally well.

Chapters seven to thirteen pour a foundation that explains the different facets of the Soul and how it relates to the world in which we live. You will get firsthand accounts of how the Soul can be re-awakened, how you can communicate using nothing but mind-to-mind video streaming and even play video games of the Soul.

How the Soul shaped my experiences and your opinions is captured in the next five chapters. The issue of religion is treated with in an overgenerous and unorthodox manner. The evolution of religion is traced and the difference between religion and spirituality is examined. The entire birth, death and resurrection of the gods of religion leave you in an almost surreal state, until you get to chart the evolution of your own Soul. This stupendous tour will take you on the ride of a life time, several life times. The secrets of your humanity will be revealed, but initially only in the form of puzzles that will guide your life.

The actual use of the Soul to improve the quality of your life is explained and demonstrated from chapter twenty to twenty-three. These chapters will show how you can use the Soul power to enhance your personal, professional, physical and spiritual lives. You will at the end of this section feel a level of completeness and that the gaps you had in your knowledge of the Soul have narrowed significantly.

The communication ends in chapter twenty-four with a twelve-step plan towards understanding the path to Soulful enlightenment. So, whereas the previous chapters would have closed your knowledge gap, the last chapter will provide you with a sequential programme for acquiring the information that will make you a fully conscious Soul.

Other themes, such as the influence of secret societies, especially Freemasonry, are sprinkled throughout the work to demonstrate the inextricable link between the Soul and some of the finest Soul-related seekers and detectives.

The chapters that required external and objective reference, verification or substantiation drew extensively on the works of some preeminent stalwarts in matters of the Soul and related topics. These authors include Gary Zukav, Neale Donald Walsch, Mark Booth aka Jonathan Black, James Redfield, Dan Brown, Marguerite Orane, Alvin Day, Courtney Kazembe, Echo Bodine, Charles Van Doren, Brad Meltzer, Al Koran, Rudolph Steiner, W. J. Stein, Robert Temple, Richard Wilhelm, Zora Neale Hurston, and Paul E. Chu. For convenience, these references were collated and itemized in a references section.

Overall, this has been a most rewarding experience that is already fuelling the desire to have more interactions with you and your Soul. I anticipate hearing from those of you who will be in touch to let me know how the Lives of a Soul has helped you to become more Soul aware. I can hardly wait to hear how you have started to use Soul power to change your life and the lives of others that you influence. I definitely am impatient to continue the work that will lead to the further development of your Soul, and mine.

One Love. I&I love you,

Courtney George Orlando Lodge, Author

www.courtneylodge.com

CHAPTER 1: Lives Before Life

I&I did not yet have a brain to process it, but I&I definitely knew that it was me that was being conceived. For more than 214 Earth years (since 1755), I&I was in the realm of spirituality. For this, my 76th reincarnation, I&I was about to experience another physical, conscious, human form. Human beings use spaceships to probe outer space and to understand things that they otherwise just could not know. Similarly, spiritual beings use the human body as a vehicle to experience the physical world in ways that are not possible for non-physical entities. This will be my 76th trip to the world of human consciousness, and another opportunity to evolve as a spiritual being.

As I&I regained consciousness of my humanity, the entire universe responded with electrifying vibrations. The heavens literally opened up and created an umbilical link between the spiritual and physical worlds. Energy from millions of light years away from the Earth warped, entered a wormhole—a shortcut through space and time--of sorts, and came rushing into my being. The reality is that the entity that I&I was, filled the entire universe. I&I was intimately connected with everything that ever existed, does exist, or will ever exist. I&I was very far from the Earth, but simultaneously, I&I was on, and even within, the Earth. It took me forever, literally, to reach my Earthly destination, but simultaneously, I&I arrived here in under a millionth of a second. I&I traveled from many galaxies away, but arrived on Earth the very instant I&I left my point of origin. The energy flowed through me, but simultaneously, the energy was me. The energy was transformational.

It was October 2, 1969 at 5:10 p.m. that this physical awakening revisited my Soul. It was just 2 hours and 23 minutes after my father of this reincarnation had expended seeds from his scrotum and life-giving energy from his Soul. Deep inside my mother’s abdomen, millions of other sperm cells were rushing towards the unfertilized egg in her most fertile womb.

My parents both cuddled and slept in order to rest up after passionate love making between a vivacious 65 year old Afro-European man and an irresistibly lusty Afro-Jamaican woman of 26 years. As they enjoyed their post-coital sleep, on that windblown day, they were in the process of changing the world forever, whether or not they knew it.

I&I--or more specifically, my essence at that time--hovered over my parents and waited with eagerness and anxiety as I&I observed the whole microscopic universe within my mother’s womb. The sperm race was on. The winner will likely create a new life form that will consist of the DNA of these two, unique human beings, my parents and their fore parents. It has been quite a while that they have been waiting, and so have I&I. All the variables were finally in place and this moment seemed perfect. This seemed like the perfect storm. All the various and unlikely variables were assembled together in a once-in-a-trillion life time combination. If human life were perfect, my mother would give birth to my physical body in about nine months from this date. Human life, however, is not always perfect.

1.1Here Before Now

For the past 214 Earth years I&I had been waiting, observing, learning and anticipating. Waiting for the right couple that would provide me with the type of Earthly experiences that I&I wanted to pay off my karmic debts, or transgressions against the Soul. Observing to see where the world was going and ensuring that the environment could facilitate my objectives. Learning about the mistakes I&I had made in past lives and how best I&I could atone for my errors of judgement. Anticipating another sojourn that would take me back a little closer to my true self, my Original Source, and oneness with my Creator-Self.

In my last reincarnation (1731-1755), I, the physical me, was the third child of a French lieutenant and his wife, a self-trained British “attorney”. She used her father’s law books to teach herself law and provided “behind the scenes” advice or “counsel” to real attorneys. My existence was good and I was highly educated—thanks to my mother who valued education very much. I loved my mother more than any other human being I had ever met. She was kind, caring, loving and very supportive. She taught me about my spirituality. Her words of wisdom guided my inner world. “You are born for eternal greatness my son. You were imbued with the Soul of magnificence”, she would oftentimes say. However, it was my Dad’s occupation that I preferred. I admired mom’s intellect, but yearned to be as brave as my army-trained father.

Devastation visited my household when I was 16 years old, when my mother and father separated. I thought of committing suicide. I was about to give up on life, especially when I was forced to go and live with my father. I wanted to live with my mother, but I was too afraid to tell Dad that I could not come with him, especially when he was going to be providing the financial assistance I needed to survive. I was weak, I was a scared pussycat. There had to be an escape from these traumatic circumstances. Well, obviously my father did not think about my trauma—he remarried 2 months after the official divorce from my mother.

I hated my new step-mother because she spoke ill of my mother on a daily basis. We just could not get along, no matter how hard I tried. She took two children to the marriage and she openly showed favouritism. My new brother and sister were not very warm to me either, though we never really fought. My step-mother was indeed an evil person. Because of this, I was always in my Dad’s company.

One Sunday evening, I followed Dad to the navy base to visit his best friend. There were all types of armoured vessels docked at the navy base. I became totally enamoured with the ships—their architecture appealed to me the most. Soon, at age 17, I became an apprentice in a shipyard, where I eventually met all types of sea farers: navy personnel, merchants, and pirates.

Hard work was my escape from the circumstances at home. I intoxicated myself with work so that I would not remember how much I was missing my mother and how I hated my new, pitiful existence. My industriousness resulted in high quality work of noteworthy quantity. A very perceptive captain saw my enthusiasm and curious mind. After just a short interview, he invited me sailing to the Canary Islands and other destinations. “I am going to be the captain of a ship and I will make you a very proud man,” I declared to my Dad.

That was it! That is when I remembered that I was reborn to explore the world and bring unity to warring factions. That is when my heart revealed to me my most profound desire…to help people to be the best that they can possibly become. Help them to find a way to get back to their Creator. My mission then was not of an Earthly nature, but a universal one--one that will change the entire universal oneness. It was my destiny to unite the world, to create a new universal awareness of the Soul. These wholesome ambitions, I concluded, perhaps mistakenly so, could not be attained unless I first helped myself to be the best me. I had to first maximize my own potential, I thought, and it is only then that I would truly be in a position to give wholeheartedly of myself. In this light, I had to see the world. I had to experience the worst and best in the world. Only then could I become an authority on the subject matter of “achieving latent greatness”, on “creating Soul awareness”. That is when I realized that life on Earth is all about being born again to release bad karma…about conquering death in order to pay debts.

Knowledge of your mission and purpose on Earth does help you to stay on course. It does help to guide your Earthly vessel towards its destination, its desired port, its home port. However, this knowledge alone does not stop you from doing wrong or right. On a daily or hourly basis, you have to keep reminding yourself of your purpose.

Despite my full knowledge of my purpose at that time, I was compelled to commit one final sin—I poisoned my step-mother the morning before I set sail. By the time my Dad and “siblings” returned home two days later and found her purple, swollen and fly-infested body that was about to burst open, I was already over three hundred miles away on the open ocean.

It was this plan in mind why I had decided to sail with this most endearing captain of tremendous intellectual capacity. He was the captain of a very successful pirate ship. Piracy was an honourable vocation that significantly benefitted the country. Piracy was literally encouraged and supported. Prisoners would oftentimes be released to go sailing and to take back valuables for the sponsors of the vessels and the government/monarchy that had set them free. In fact, many successful pirates were knighted after they conquered new countries or performed other significant feats. The pirate that I chose to sail with was a knight and was known to be quite vicious. I knew that the evil resident within him would find a kindred spirit in me. I knew he would understand my circumstances and not turn me in to be arrested.

It was the year 1755 (214 years before this new conception in 1969), and on this very first trip we sailed to the Canary Island and then on to the Caribbean. I visited all the islands of the eastern Caribbean and eventually sailed westward to Hispaniola (now Haiti and Dominican Republic), Cuba and finally to Jamaica.

The War of Jenkins’ Ear (1736-1755) between England and Spain was just about coming to an end. Immediately prior to 1736, Spanish ships would arbitrarily stop and search English and other ships in search of contraband. Jenkins, a Jamaican, did not like this practise and reported to the King of England that the Spanish had cut off his ears and threatened that this is how they would treat all English sailors. Although Jenkins had what appeared to be severed ears on display, many believed that he had concealed his real ears under his wig. Despite this, the English King declared war against Spain. When the war finally ended, Spain still did not desist from searching English ships. It is under these exciting, post-war circumstances that I had decided to come to Jamaica.

Further, England was celebrating its 100-year possession of Jamaica, having gained same in 1655 when Admiral Penn and General Venables captured the island from Spain. To celebrate this centenary, the capital of Jamaica, Spanish Town, was changed to Kingston. Port Royal was the haven of havens for pirates. It was indeed a good year to have come to Jamaica to gain worldly knowledge. It was a good year to loot from all those who were coming to Jamaica to celebrate, or who were previously prevented from travelling due to the war. It was a good time for me to gain 10 years’ pirate experience in only six months. The moment I landed at Port Royal I recognized it as part of what once was the mighty Atlantis mainland where I had lived in an even earlier reincarnation. This is why I had come back to Jamaica, to search for my lost Atlantis, but somehow, I lost my sense of purpose and mission by thinking that I was a pirate.

I was a navigator, at least, so I called myself, as my main function was related to navigation. However, whenever there were ships to be plundered, people to be robbed and killed, I was equally as adept at those tasks. I too was a pirate, whether I realized or accepted that. The desire to serve the welfare of others was sacrificed at the altar of learning the skill of navigation, which I grew to love after only four days out at sea. So buried was I in learning the new navigational tasks and pirate tricks, that I lost sight of the bigger picture, my life’s purpose. The port of my life’s quest disappeared from the radar. I could not see through the fog of this uncharted course that my life was drifting aimlessly into the treacherous and irredeemable abyss of crime.

On a daily basis I thought of my mother and could not wait to return to her with enormous riches. The more I thought about her and the more I remembered her vision for my life, the more depressed I became. The more depressed I became the more I realized that I was hurting Mom and hurting myself. This was no longer a life worth living. This life was only adding negative karma to my eternal existence. At times this reality eluded me because I was caught up in working in this life, as opposed to working on my life. Unfortunately, this seemed to be the reality for most persons. On my ship, for example, all my colleagues were obviously lost in trying to accumulate riches for this world. They too did not realize that there was another existence for them. And they definitely did not realize that the other existence was more important and was being negatively affected by their daily actions and thoughts.

My spiritual guardians, which included the larger part of my Soul, saw that I was heading for eternal disaster and damnation, that is, further separation from my Creator. These guardians are the ones that forced me to critically analyze my life. Like most human beings, I had poor will power, poor control over my freewill. It was going to be next to impossible to turn this life around. Lost and murderous was I. I deserved and appreciated my most gruesome death in the bay of Port Maria, St. Mary, Jamaica in 1755.

1.2Death Before Birth

Death was painful. It was a misty Tuesday morning at about 4:30 in November 1755 that my crew decided to attack and rob its 17^th ship of this trip. Port Maria Bay has an island, Cabarita Island, just 1.6 kilometers from its shore. The Cabarita, which is situated almost in the centre of the bay, provided a perfect vantage point to hide overnight, waylay and ambush the cargo ships that were leaving the port. My colleagues did their reconnaissance exercise and shared the information they gathered. We were well prepared, or so we thought. The intelligence gathering team did not realize that the ship that we were about to rob had made on-board security escort arrangements the night before. The team also did not note that the Fort over-looking the bay was now being used for non-military, for-hire, private security purposes. Our attack was put down within 9 minutes. A cannon ball from the Fort ripped through the starboard side of our ship and left a massive hole [that is still there] in the western side of the Island. Within 5 minutes thereafter, over 80 armed guards were chopping and shooting each and every member of our 23-man crew.

Death was painful, but necessary. I took a buck shot just below the right breast. My right lung exploded and immediately lost its capacity to perform as designed. It was now sucking in air directly through its side, as the bullet had redesigned it to do. In less than five seconds I started to feel light-headed and could already feel myself beginning to drift into shock. There were screams all around me as my surprised shipmates were dying from wounds of all sorts.

It was now my turn. I was now being attacked by an enemy guard. I could see his sword as it came rushing at my neck. Instinctively, I threw up my right arm to block the chop. Like a knife through butter, the sword severed my right arm just below the elbow. With a loud “thud”, my severed arm fell to the deck, as the point of the sword slashed through my left eyeball. Blood gushed from what was left of my amputated arm. A clear liquid substance mixed with blood came spewing out of my eye, as the pain of a thousand deaths came rushing in. As I turned and fell, I could feel the bayonet of another soldier dislocating the base of my spine, rupturing my bladder and exiting my abdomen just below my navel.

On a second attempt, the sword of the first attacker hit its mark. I could feel its sharp edge as it effortlessly slit through the flesh and bones of my neck. The excruciating pain was the equivalent of being electrocuted, but was over by the time the sword had finished cutting through the last bit of flesh. I could no longer feel pain. My brain was not receiving the signals being sent from the wound. I felt as though I was flying. Was this an out of body experience? Could this possibly be death? Consciousness no longer existed within my body, but I&I could tell all that was happening.

I&I observed from my hyperspace vantage point as my severed head fell overboard. Now I was truly light-headed! It was uncanny to watch my own body as it sank beneath the waves with the ship that took it from England. The remains of my body were eventually eaten by fish and crabs. This was not a beautiful sight to behold, not even for a Soul. However, this was better than having my body buried beneath the Earth and eaten by maggots!

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My life for that reincarnation was very instructive. It revealed to me that I&I had many issues to work on. That my Soul needed to learn some new things. That I&I needed to better understand how to manage a physical existence to serve the purpose of my Soul. That Soul preparation is necessary before a journey into physicality. That it was possible to pre-send messages to your Earthly body so that it can carry out required tasks.

My Soul learned a lot. My physical existence, however, profited from little that was worth remembering. No monuments were erected in my memory, no epitaph marks my burial spot and no book in history makes mention of my name— René Dupree. Emotionally and physically, death was painful.

Death was painful, but necessary for rebirth. Without the reality of reincarnation and karmic cleansing there would be no need for the Soul to take on physical form. The frailty of the human body makes it necessary for the Soul to take on flesh again and again and strive for redemption and healing. The human form is a blessing that no Soul which has wandered from its Source can resist. It is the only way for the bodily Soul to get back to its Original State. This is why Souls enter the human body and utilize the conscious mind to work its way back Home. It is the conscious intellect of mankind that assists the unconscious, brainless Soul to work its way out of the quagmire that exists when the Soul departs from its Source, the Creator. Consciousness in mankind is useless without the subconscious guidance of the Soul, but the Soul cannot approach unity with its Source without the help of the conscious mind. The severed Soul needs the body and the body needs the Soul. This mutually beneficial relationship makes the cycle of birth and death necessary. Without death, rebirth is not possible.

Death was painful, but necessary for rebirth and healing. It was important, then, for me to return to the physical state of being. It took quite a bit of negotiating to convince the other seventy waiting spirits that this pregnancy was meant for me. Other spirits wanted to return to the physical world, and some were too eager so to do. As such, they were taking an opportunistic stance. They wanted to enter the new life form in the first available pregnancy. For my part, as a relatively highly evolved Child Soul, I&I had to show the other evolving Souls the importance of finding a union that would enhance their long-term spiritual development. We eventually agreed that this “perfect storm” was my long-awaited turn. Long-awaited because it is 214 Earth years, though in the world of the Soul the concept of time does not exist. Time exists only in the conscious intellect. It is oftentimes said that, “Time heals all wounds”. The conscious intellect, therefore, is necessary to create the concept of time that will heal the wounds of the Soul.

Death was painful, but only to the physical body. In the reality of the Soul, death does not exist. The Soul cannot die. The Soul has always existed and will continue to exist into eternity. It is this awareness that made my death painless. Yes, death was painful, but simultaneously it was painless. How could something that does not exist be painful?

Your body might die, but you who live in your body cannot die. It is good to know that even after you are gone, you will still be here. From time to time persons will sense your spiritual presence. Your body can be injured, but your Soul which resides in your body cannot be injured by attacks on your body. Knowledge of this fact makes one aware that death and the grave have no sting or victory, except over the body. Knowledge of this fact releases one from the fear of death. When the fear of death vanishes, one can live any number of lives necessary to cleanse the Soul of its negative karma. In this sense, conquering death is easy. In this sense, death is good. In this sense, one must be happy that the human body can die. Death is good!

It is only upon death that the Soul permanently releases the body--the Soul temporarily leaves the body in out-of-body experiences (OBE), near-death experiences (NDE) and during some types of lucid dreams. If the body could not die, the Soul would feel compelled to stay and work with an existence that was irreversibly on the wrong path. The Soul would feel trapped in the microcosm of the body. I, my human body, deserved my horrible death, but because of it I&I had the opportunity to revisit my Soul’s strategy and to be born again. That is what I&I was in the process of…being born again, being reincarnated.

CHAPTER 2: The Illuminate Conception

The instant the winning sperm touched my mother’s egg on that glorious October day in 1969, the universe shook and I&I again entered the realm of consciousness. The Light of my Soul entered the Dark void of humanity and an illuminate conception was created to assist in minimizing this Darkness. An illuminate conception is one which produces an illuminated human being. An illuminated human being is one that is spiritually enlightened. This enlightenment simply means that the individual, at some level, is aware of his Soul and the purpose of his Soul. Every human conception brings spiritual enlightenment to a physical form. Every human conception transforms Darkness to Light. The Light (with uppercase “L”) referred to here is not physical light, but rather a state of being that has some amount of positive karma, a state of being that is spiritually illuminated and somewhat enlightened. Every human conception illuminates the darkness that shrouds all humanity. This darkness refers to ignorance, or the unawareness of the Soul’s purpose on Earth. The state of humanity is one that is fundamentally Soul-ignorant. To this end, some—the Gnostics, for example--refer to the state of humanity as a “living hell”. That hell is here on Earth. That hell is a state of mind.

Before delving deeper into the concept of illuminate conceptions, there are some ambiguities in human religious beliefs that, if disambiguated, will create some clarity. Who is Satan and what is his role? What is hell? What is an Immaculate Conception? Why do Souls enter into humanity?

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“Once upon a time”, a particular Soul which enjoyed a state of near-perfection, an “Arch Angel” volunteered to “bring Light to the world”. This decision to assist by giving up all of its Light to other Souls caused the once-almost-perfect servant to become almost perfectly Dark. Darkness is the absence of Light. Light can be equated to the nature of God, and Darkness would be an anti-God, or ungodly state. This means that this Soul that gave up his godly nature fell from the highest heights of “lightness” to the deepest depths of “Darkness”--a fallen star, or a fallen angel, one might say. The Soul fell out of heaven! This “falling” only means that the Soul is removed from its Creator. This “removal” is more of a conceptual movement than a physical movement because in the realm that God exists there is no space within which an entity can move. This is more like an intellectual disagreement than a physical distance, or like a “falling from grace”.

This giving up of Light is the first instance of martyrdom in the spiritual world. Because of his decision to be the “opposite” of Light, the [Old Testament] Hebrews refer to this Soul as the “Ha-satan”, or Satan, which translates loosely as the “Opposition” or the “Adversary”. This translation has left Satan with a totally negative reputation, though he insists that his intentions are pure. Satan insists that, with assistance, he can bring Light to other Souls by accepting all of the sins, darkness, and negative karma of human beings. My accepting the sins of humanity, Satan argues, he can free up Souls that decided to enter into humanity. In [New Testament] Christianity, Satan is called “Lucifer”, which is a Latin word that means “Light-Bringer”. Satan is convinced that “his” role is a positive one, even though he achieves this objective through an apparently negative and adversarial way. He refers to this approach as “negative reinforcement”.