Poetic Embrace
Fiordaliza Charles
copyright 2012 Fiordaliza Charles
Smashbook Edition
DEDICATION
To my creator and savior GOD. To the people that worked so hard at published America to
make sure that I get my book published again, to my readers whom I appreciate so much. To
my mother who always encourages me to do my best. My daughter who always brings out the
best in me. My husband who always been a supporter of everything that I do and to my family
and friends that have supported me in the making of this book and in life. Thank you all for
everything you do for me. I am forever thankful.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
First and foremost, I will like to thank God for giving me the ability to read and write poetry
and to you all of the staff members of Publish America for giving me yet another opportunity to
be heard and for taking a chance with me again.
Very special thanks to my family and friends that asked me to keep writing because, they feel I
need to be heard, your support means so much to me. Much love to Father and Mother who
love me unconditionally and really helped me to embrace who I've become. Special thanks to
all my readers who continue to support me and give me wonderful feedback on my writings
each day. I will never forget your words of encouragement.
I am specially grateful to my daughter Kadiya whom believes in me and looks up to me and she
says I make her want to be a better person because of what I have accomplished here and last
but, not least my biggest thank you goes out to my husband who encourages me to do better
everyday and assures me that he loves me. I am so blessed to have found you and I love you
with all my heart.
Fiordaliza Charles
ALONE
As I lay here thinking
Last night
Pondering on how to find my soul a home
Where the water's are not for the thirsty
and bread is not made of a stone
I came up with one thing
and I don't believe that I'm wrong
That nobody
but, nobody
can make it out here alone
Alone, all alone
nobody but, nobody
can make it out here alone
Give me a reason to live
I don’t want to be around anymore
I lost everything that I adored
Alone, all alone
nobody but, nobody
can make it out here alone
TIRED OF WAITING
I'm tired of waiting, patiently for love
To get hurt, once again
tired of the bull-crap I get from these lames
I need a true friend till the very end
Life is so unpredictable
When you find yourself in love
everything just seems so real
but, that is never the deal
Now that is over, I have to forget the fun
everything that you promised, is now done
after all the I love you's
all the love we shared is gone
I'm tired of wishing, things get better
Today, I promise myself
I break free
and start thinking of me
DON'T UNDERSTAND
Why can't you feel my fears
why do we grow apart and not near
I waste time and all my tears
for true love, all of these years
Can't you tell, I have a broken heart
that my soul has been torn apart
why, can't I just forget you
Now, that I am feeling blue
I feel this pain, like a burning flame
I'm going to be alone once again
not letting anyone else in my lane
I need time to recuperate
You don't understand
love is not a game
I am hurting and you just walk away
My life will never be the same
I SEE THE TRUTH
I knew it was coming
The day I feel my heart was ran over
Never through that after all these years
you would give me your cold shoulder
The ocean is no longer full
The sun is no longer shinning
The air suddenly became cold
I feel the pain through my soul
I see the truth
A day I wished never came true
My best friend turn out to be
The one that was untrue
I feel so empty and doomed
My heart you truly misused
For some reason I still love you
but, I'm glad that we are through
I'M BACK...
I'm back city of sorrow
thought I never say that again
land of broken promises and no friends
greater places I've embraced
Giving all nothing in return
but, now I am truly happy
though everyone else is not
to NYC I can always come back
Feeling the thrill of the day
Hanging out in a familiar place
and seeing my New York
I will never feel alone again
Leaving here was no surprise
but, coming back felt so good
I left many good things behind
now, I'm just glad to be back
SURVIVOR...
Having shelter, is not enough to survive
but, I bet I can make it work
suffering deep inside of my soul
can't help it that my stomach groans
I put my negative thoughts away
in a jar of memory jelly
hoping that it dissolves
and one day my time will come
Striving to do better
but, things are getting worst
putting my heart away in silent fear
trying to hold back these tears
I am a survivor, I know
I said these words to myself everyday
I can't give up on life now
I have to do this for my child
NEW YORK CITY
What it is to me, simply this
A city of hope and dreams
ditches, garbage, hearts that are broken within
hard workers, who can't afford anything
People living mostly in fear
In an apartments that are staked out
Scared to get wet in this rain
Praying the lord takes your soul, if you pass away
Mixture of people from different races
NYC you can take it a leave it
but, you will return for more
is just like an addition, that just can't ignore
New York City, is for survivors
I've been here, fought the war
Same old city, just a different day
Rain or sunshine, I'm here to stay
MY HEART
I wondered where you've gone
they told me you went away
I wondered, why you left so sudden
all my sunny skies turned to gray
Thought I would never love this way
never thought we've be apart like this
But, what did you have to lose?
You left me, feeling confused
I've told you that I needed you
and you made it to a test
I just wanted us to be together
and build us a happy nest
I knew my heart was ready for you
that's the reason why I stayed
but, I knew that the moment you saw her
You would of broken away
I MISS YOU...
Reality never set in
You were more than a friend to me
To you I told all my dark secrets
Things I always kept within
Now that you no longer here
Who do I run to with my fears
You the one who understood me
When I was draining in tears
How am I going to get passed
The things that we both went through
Now we can't just sit and talk about it
Life was taken from you and we parted
Knowing that you in a better place
keeps me from going insane
I wish that you was here
so we can become one again
CRUSHED
Shattered in pieces, where is my heart
I want to love you but, how
all you do is run away
and leave when I want you to stay
The days we spent together
you always on your phone
I get a little moment of your time
and you never drop me a line
I think you find excuses
not to be with me through the day
but, if you want for it to be over
that is all you have to say
I do not want to lose you
I really love you so much
It may not mean anything to you
but, I don't want to be crushed
QUESTIONS
Are you still here ?
Waiting for what ?
Why don't you leave me ?
What are your thoughts
Why must I repeat myself?
How many times, do I have to tell you?
Do you think this is a game?
Here, you can no longer stay
Why don't you get out of my face?
Do you think you can't be replaced?
How can you love anyone?
After you hurt them this way
Do you think I'm yours?
Was you to my heart untrue?
Can you find someone like me?
I'm not coming back to you
NEVER AGAIN
The smell of your cologne
the hugs that I once owned
the way you made love to me
now I will never know
You used to tell me you adore me
now I'm feeling all used
you leave me behind like a piece a crap
how come treat me like that
I waited for you each day
with the smell of you still around
but, you never came back home
where did all the love go
The love we shared can not be found
It will never be replaced
can't you see that I'm the one
why do I love so hard
TEARS OF A CLOWN
Don't ever think that I'm not hurt
every time you leave I want to die
but, I will never show it
I rather you think I'm alright
Don't ever think that I'm not in pain
every time we not together I feel I’m going insane
but, I will never show you that
I rather you think, I'm just drained
Don't ever think that I am not sad
every time you leave me, I want to cry
but, I will never let you see me like that
I rather you think, that with out you I will survive
Don't ever think that I don't be stress
every time you not around I'm a mess
but, I will never show that when I am near you
I rather you think, that I don't miss you
I AM SCARED TOO
I want to love you all over again
but, I don't think you want to be loved
every time I attempt to, I just get hurt
Like you was not sent from above
Can you show me the way
I want to make it through
with you by my side each day
despite of what you put me though
I know is hard to keep it together
my heart is always confused
I can't imagine my life with out you
but, I am also scared too
PEACE !!!
Let's fight for the right reason
Let's make a difference in our children life
Let's give the world a reason to celebrate
Let's take a chance and make things right
Let's get together brothers and sisters
Let's remember to celebrate life every day
Let's make our mothers and fathers proud
Let's take our children fears away
Let's give people something good to talk about
Let's grant our ancestor something to be proud about
Let's be grateful for what we have found
Let's say "Yes I Can" without a doubt
Let's be more specific of what we need
Let's show our generation ways to succeed
Let's give each other the love we deserve
and work on peace down here on earth
A PICTURE
It saw a picture, it made me look twice
I did not know him from a drop of a dime
but, I needed him to be a part of my life
can't believe that I met him online
He made me believe in every word he said
He knew of all the pain, I was trying to erase
He said he take care of it and take me afar
Away from all the things that have broken my heart
I trusted him with all that I know
my body could not wait till he came home
I felt so incomplete until we spoken last night
He was my savior and my only knight
He never made me feel insecure
He gave me his love and so much more
Then one day I realize that it was all a dream
and he was just a picture in my computer screen
COME WITH ME
I want to take you away
to a place where all your pain disappears
like a candle that brightens your life
I promise to never leave your side
I will give you all the things that you deserve
No, place that you'll find here on earth
let me love you down from here on
and completely take over your soul
Let me take over your mind
to a place where you feel at ease
where your body is set free
as you reach your final destiny
Come with me and be loved
to a place filled with many fantasies
where there are many pleasures
and I can be your hidden treasure
WHATEVER YOU WANT
I know that is so sudden
my heart for you felt so hard
I knew it from the start
you was my luck charm
I want to do it all over again and again
you made the pains go away
it hit me like a sunlight's ray
that you was here to stay
I never want you to leave
with you I rather be
you are the one sent from above
You can have whatever you want
HAPPY
Happier then I ever been
Joyful and more complete
No longer feeling scared
You can keep me teddy bear
Filled with so much love
Memories of us make me smile
Feeling like a new born child
Knowing that you will be around
Thankful that you are here
Waited for your love for so many years
I am no longer living in fear
Pain no longer lives here
LIES
Said we be forever but, I know that is not the true
How can your love be for real, with all this pain I have consumed
You said you love me and you made it seemed like you cared
In my heart I took a chance because, I am always scared
How can I ever forgive and forget
Your love was all that I knew
Don't sit around an pretend you love me
.
Just because, you think I am lonely
I don't want to see you ever again
not for another other day of my life
because, you are the one who broke my heart
and all you spoken was lies
UN-BREAK MY HEART
I been through enough heartaches
The pain needs to go away
Can someone please tell me
That his love is here to stay
I'm tired of being used
Left alone and confused
Tell me this love is true
because, my heart belongs to you
My heart can not take it any more
My walls are down to the floor
I opened up a new door, to let you in my life
Are you here to Un-break my heart?
GRANTED...
Why am I so confused
You say one thing and meant another
Why can you be honest with me
Tell me you don't want to be bothered
I thought you was the one
I seen you in my wildest fantasies
I always wanted to be yours
The one that made you feel complete
Why did I give you so many chances
We can't keep living a lie
Why do you toy with my emotions
and want to drop me like a dime
I guess you was not ready for love
I was not what you really wanted
All I needed was for you to be true
and the love from you to be granted
M.U.S.I.C
M-Music makes my heartache's melt away and forget the pains
U-Umbrella for sad tears, as I listen to the melodies of my favorite song
S-Songs that I can relate to and reminisce on for years to come
I-I listen to my music when I am alone or in the company of who I love
C -Could only imagine my life without it, music makes me whole
ONLY YOU
Who lies within my soul ?
Who makes me feel I am in control?
Who makes my body feel at ease?
Who makes me feel complete?
Who never makes me want to cry?
Who makes me feel protected?
Who made me realize my goals in life?
Who is the one who loves me and the one that I love?
Who makes my body unwind ?
Who is my favorite guy?
Whom don't I never forget to mention?
Who knows the answer to these questions?
Only You
BE MINES
You always outside, I have to start a fight
Your friends always come first
when are you going to be mines
If they always by your side
I don't know what you want from me
all I ask for some one on one time
but, you rather see me going insane
like a migraine on my brain
You said, you no longer feeling the same
maybe we should end things now
how can you really want me
and you never be around
I wanted you in my life forever
but, not the way that things are
how can you want this forever
when you keep breaking my heart
LAY DOWN BESIDE ME
Lay down beside me
Let me look into your eyes
as they make me realize
that you will never leave my side
Lay down beside me
So I can hear your beating heart
beating in harmony with mines
Telling me that they beat as one
Lay down beside me
For I long to feel your touch
This alone tells me
That I am the one you love
Lay down beside me
and I will lay my head on your chest
where my fears melt away
And my mind has found it's rest
Lay down beside me
Lets do a prayer together
and together we shall conquer what ever
Knowing that we will be forever
WALLS
Come down walls
Break away from it all
I can't keep hiding
because, I been hurt by love
Come down walls
Let me be free
Expressing my inner thoughts
and, believing in me
Come down walls
I'm tired of fighting myself
I want to be happy
and feel the love embrace
DISTANCE LOVE
I had a feeling that you were gone
your mother, brother and sister too
I did not know what to do
I wished that this was untrue
I went through so much
trying to get here
couldn't find no where to stay
and it made me feel insane
I let you go but, It was so hard
my heart knew it from the start
that you was the man, I should of loved
how can I forget you now
As life go on,
we will probably meet again
but, I know that in my dreams
you will always be here with me
I WISH YOU THE BEST
The grass may look greener on the other side
I think you should go take a look
I hope that you are right
because, I will no longer be waiting
and I hope that all your dreams come true
because, all you done is made me feel blue
Love does not hurt like this and it is never untrue
Love makes you feel complete and never abused
each and every time we are together
you want something new
well, I wish you the best
because we are through
GET AWAY TRAIN
Don't trip on what I have to say
but, you need a quick vacation
from all the madness inside you
and all of these bad temptations
Take a day and spend time on yourself
not your car and not your friends
You need a place to relax
where you can leave everything in the past
Rejoice in great harmony
Sit around and try not to complain
Join all your problems in one cloud
From a window of a get away train
Never look back
keep moving forward
life is to short
to waste on unhappy moments
THE END
You made me feel unwanted
You made me feel deranged
When ever I wanted to be with you
Your excuses were always the same
I don't know
why you feel the need to continue this
I wanted us to be together
but, not the way it is
I think we both can agree
we don't feel the same any more
I don't have no more to say
I just want you to go away
Lets end things now and move on
our lives will be so much better
why can't you see we are not meant
and this will not last forever
THE LOVE IS GONE
Pain in my heart
wont leave my soul
hit me so hard
I though I was dead
In your arms I felt whole
Now all I feel is alone
why can't you see I am in need
What happen to our hopes and dreams
I knew that this was to good to be true
The moment I said I loved you
should of know it was coming
from me you were departing
I cared for you too much to say this
but, I can't do this any more
my heart just cant ignore
that it don't love you anymore
THE HEART DOES NOT LIE
When your heart is no longer ticking
at the site of your mate
when everything becomes argument
you just want to get away
You don't want to get involve
in anything that they do
you feel they are being untrue
In all they are saying to you
It does not matter what they do
It don't bother you any more
you don't want them around
and to just walk out of the door
Emotions are running every where
You can't pretend that you care
You don't feel anything inside
The heart does not lie
LOVE IS
Love is patient and never anxious
Love is polite and does not fight
Love is truthful and does not lie
and it never makes you cry
Love never let you lose control
Love makes you feel whole
Love creates excitement
Makes you feel like a giant
Love is more than happy times
Love is taking a risk
Love is everything great wrapped up in one
Something that you can resist
Love is precious
Love is always true
Love is like everyone in a room
but, you only see the one for you
I WISHED FOR YOU
Tall but, not too tall
Thick but, not too wide
Sincere with all he do
Someone that I can't deny
Mentally like an instrument
Always ready to learn
giving me pleasure in all we endure
and making me always feel secure
Someone that knows all my secrets
and still accepts me the same
proud to be all mines
and wants me to be his wife
People can see the love in our eyes
Our love we cannot hide
I wished for you
and my dream finally came true
LETTER FROM GOD
When everything feels unfamiliar
When you fear the unknown
When you feel life is gone
Because, your body feels cold
When you think you cannot make it
When your feel like your alone
When your tears are all you own
I'll be right here all along
When you feel you have no friends
When you feel like you are not safe
When you feel like you are about to lose it
I'll be here to save the day
When life seems to be get harsh
When people turn their backs
When you feel lost and confused
come to me, I'll be waiting for you
NOTHING LEFT
You came to me in a flash
Like the memories of my past
I had to make it all last
make you mines no matter what
but, to my surprise
you were not mines
only came to hurt me inside
now all Ido is cry
I had to make my tears go dry
feeling so empty inside
and fearing that I will die
now is too late to turn back
to the life that I once owned
the love we shared is now gone
and nothing left to be done
OUR WORLD
I was everywhere with my thoughts
Like a child inside a sandbox
Like a tree missing a branch to grow
My life with out you will be so cold
I missed you every minute of the hour
The moment you walked away
I knew I was in trouble
I felt your touch and I was in drained
What is it about you that I can't resist
Is it all in your sensual kiss
Or the way you placed me in your arms
I feel like a kid eating Lucky Charms
I need to have you close to me
Taken to a place of ecstasy
To a world that is made for only you and me
Place me in your heart and never leave
TILL THE DAY, WE MEET AGAIN
Seems like yesterday
I will pick a fight with you
Just to get some f your attention
It was all with good intentions
I'm still lost with out your smile
and I just can't figure it out
You used to make me so mad
Now, I wish I had that back
I will never forget your words
I'm yours no matter the wrongs
Now I am sitting here wishing you was alive
Feeling like I want to die
Now that your gone why will I forget
all the memories we had together
Till the day, we meet again
I will treasure them forever
ANGEL OF MINES
He was of a pure as the color white
he was softer than a dove
gave me more than I could imagine
like he was sent from above
I knew he was the one
He will whisper in my ears
all the things I wanted to hear
and he was around for years
How can I ever forget him
I know that he is now gone
Our love was so profound
It was true love, he was the one
I wish I could turn back now
To a time when the world was ours
you was wearing a disguise
because, you were an angel of mines
DON'T EVEN BOTHER
I saw it with my very own eyes
You kissed her and said goodnight
I thought you was all mines
how can you do me like that
You took away a piece of my heart
but, you won't give it back
love is not for everyone
I feel so incomplete and shallow
for you a tear I will not drop
How can you explain what I saw, for what
I don't want to hear it
you saying you are sorry, wait until tomorrow
what we had is now over
and that's that
please
don't even bother
I AM DONE
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sugar is sweet and so are you
yeah right ! you thought I was through
I don't want to ever hear from you
You gave me all of these clues
I just didn't want to see the truth
but, now who is feeling blue
my heart no longer loves you
go cry your crocodile tears
I just want you out of here
All you did was bring me pain
and my love for you was real
I am though with all of your lies
I am done, goodbye
LET'S PRETEND
We own our destiny
we can pick the life we want
we appear to be happy
never complain life is crappy
The skies are always blue
No rain ever falls
You are with the one you love
and we never have to fall
we get along with our family
we co-exist with each other
we have many other brothers
though they are not from the same mother
we never die or become of old age
our world is filled with joy and never pain
we have everything we desire
lets pretend
because, that is all we can believe
YOUR NAME
I seen you around
once or twice and about
we spoken with our eyes
but, never open our mouths
I love the way you walk
from far away, I can see the way you talk
you hands moving as you arrive
I want to be by my side
I asked around for you
with the description I known
they told me you was around
but, you are no where to be found
Tell me are you going to stop my way
let me hear you say it
what I want to know is no shame
I just want to know your name
ALWAYS & FOREVER
A= Apart we will never, ever be
L= Lovers we will always remain
W= We belong together forever
A= Anyone can see we are in love
Y= You and me happy as we ought to be
S= Saving our hearts for each other indeed
&
F= Forever will always be
O= Offering our love to one another
R= Realizing we were meant to be
E= Even if we was to ever part
V=Valentines will be in our hearts
E= Everyday we will feel so special
R= Remembering we are each others treasure
GET OUT
You think I am always nagging
and you are so tired of it
You obviously do not know me
If you think that you own me
You must have just been born
With a silver spoon in your mouth
Do you know what it is to struggle
and really being with out
Wake up and smell the coffee
before you end up in a bliss
I'm tire of your complaining
about the old life you had
Being alone can be harsh
but, I will always adjust that is no doubt
Why stick around if your not happy
All you have to do is get out
SMILE
You seen me smiling from ear to ear,
and I was once a wreck
why can I forget you
and not deal with your mess
If I was single
I can just mingle
I don't need this stress
I deserve more than love at is best
You say you love me
and that you loved me for a while
but, the way that you act towards me
just brings me tears of a clown
Where did my heart go
Are you back to hurt me again
I just want you to leave now
I want to get back my smile
DO YOU STILL CARE?
What brought us together
also, tore us apart. You always been far
Away from my giving heart
No one can replace you
The cannot compare to what we had, you will always be
My shining star
Where did it all go ?
The love we shared, I look around and you are not there
Like you been hiding from a night mare
Give me my heart back, if you don't want it
Grant me serenity if you dare
I need to know, do you still care ?
TENDERNESS
Treat me with more respect
Let me forget the meaning of the rest
I want to feel special in every way
Like you once mentioned
Please be gentle, oh so gentle
I am a little sentimental
All I want is to be loved and nurtured
Like a queen, dreams off
Take good care of my heart
Treat me like a woman at her best
Like the precious diamond I am
with a lot of tenderness
POETIC EMBRACE
My poems are like hugs
I hope that you enjoyed them all
because, I written them just for you
and for my life to adjust
I am grateful for all of you
hope that you stick around
because, I need you
to express myself somehow
Watch our out world, I am not done
I'm going to continue
giving you more of My poetic heart
and the best is yet to come