The Gift
A Supernatural Hint as to what Peter is…
Book Three in the Jake Winters Series
DOUG WHITE
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DEDICATION
In the early 1980’s while working as a camp counselor, I had a seven-year-old boy in my cabin with a chronic bedwetting problem; a result of neglect and emotional abuse. If ever there was a child that needed Jake Winters’ type of TLC, this was the one. Because of my own ignorance, I failed him. I’ve never forgotten that boy, or my own shortcomings. I’d like to dedicate this book to him.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENT
In The Gift, Peter has many new experiences. One of those is a physical exam. In reality, I don’t think this would be possible; but in fiction, anything is possible.
I have to thank both my niece, Renee Birdlingmaier, a nurse and the mother of three small children, and my doctor, Mark Swetz, for helping me understand what’s involved in the exam of a young child.
Ultimately I had to imagine myself in the shoes of a doctor who is about to examine a proven ghost in a mortal body. I let my imagination go, thus, my fictional Dr. Bruce’s sudden interest in neurology.
In the past when I visited a doctor’s office, I scanned through sports and outdoor magazines. Since starting this series, I find myself reading child-rearing material.
A few years ago while heading home for Christmas on I-71 in Ohio, I pulled into a truck stop thirty miles north of Columbus and called Doug Denbow. Doug, a retired English teacher, and I have been friends since teaming up as scoutmasters of a Salvation Army Troop, in the mid 1960s.
Over a cup of coffee, I chanced to mention I’d written a book. He asked if I’d send him a copy of the manuscript. Five weeks later, he returned the first five chapters, edited. He’s been my editor ever since.
As we worked together on the series, more than once we were both in tears since it deals with a neglected and abused six-year-old boy. However, as the series moves further away from the traumatic experiences Peter suffered as a living child, Peter develops into a normal, fun-loving, active six-year-old boy with mischief in his eyes at times. As a result, Doug and I chuckled often over some of his antics. Many of these were suggested by the antics of children I’d worked with over the years, some were my own as a young child and a few are a product of my imagination. Thanks Doug.
In my second book, The Editorial, I asked Cathy Hardy if she would proofread for me. I explained a time problem I had and gave her three days. She promised she’d do her best. Between a full time job and family responsibilities, she managed 374 pages in three days. She found a lot of mistakes, but didn’t find them all. Who would expect her to in three days?
With this book, I gave her two months and two other proofreaders. Again, Cathy, thanks much.
The other three proofreaders are also longtime friends; Jim Preston, after whom I modeled the character Bill Early, introduced in The Editorial; Jackie Pawlicki, our camp nurse going back twenty-five years and the mother of Cindy, who provided me with the inspiration for The Load; and Shelly Sellepack, my minister’s wife.
Henry “Hank” Helton, the character model for Hank Hamilton in the series, is a long-time truck driver (now retired) and friend. Both he and his wife, Julie, have served as critics for me. Thanks, guys.
Wendy Mills, mother of three small children, home-schooler and an independent representative of Usborne Books, a company out of Tulsa, Oklahoma that works with home-schoolers, is also an artist. Wendy is the designer of the cover. Thanks, Wendy.
Karen Smith is a friend that goes back to our elementary school days. She’s a hard-hitting critic of mine. In both The Editorial and The Gift, I listened to what she had to say, reread portions of the books, decided she was right and rewrote portions of both. Thanks, Karen.
Again, I must thank my brother-in-law, Harry “Bud” Yount, for being my continuous sounding board. He’s listened to many of my ideas over the years and expressed his opinions. Thanks, Bud.
I’d also like to thank my sister, Sue Yount, for also assisting with the proofreading of the text. Whenever I had a question pertaining to grammar, she was there. Thanks, Sue.
I want to thank my growing base of followers for their support. I hope you continue to enjoy the antics of Peter and the adventures of the unique trucking team of Winters and Stevenson.
Finally, I have to thank my family and friends for not abandoning me yet and for their continued encouragement and input.
INTRODUCTION AND BACKGROUND
A summary of The Load and The Editorial, the two books leading up to The Gift, follows:
“A passenger! In my truck? I don’t think so. I’m too independent for a passenger. I like my independence and the freedom that goes with it. Not on your life! Besides, who would sign his liability form?”
“He doesn’t need a liability form,” Jane said. “He’s dead.”
And that’s how I ended up with a 106 year-old ghost as a passenger in my big rig. Peter Stevenson took on the form of the most charming six-year-old boy you’d ever hope to meet. In the short time we’ve been moving around the country together, we’ve been involved in some pretty wild things — some involving the law. Peter began to work his magic on me.
I’m Jake Winters, a bachelor over-the-road trucker who’d just begun to dream of retirement and some serious fishing up north when Peter…
It all began on June 29, 2001. As a cross-country truck driver, I delivered a load of paper to a company in Butte, Montana. After unloading, I was dispatched to a small mining town some forty miles north of Butte. There I picked up a small piece of machinery at the J. and J. Mines in Slippery Gulch bound for a firm in Reno, Nevada, putting a secure seal on the trailer in accordance with shipping protocol.
Before leaving town with my load, I befriended a small waif, Peter Stevenson. He was the most severely neglected child I’d ever seen; and I have worked with a lot of kids years ago as a classroom science teacher and camp counselor and director. This boy’s body and clothes were filthy dirty. His clothes, what were left of them, were rotting away with age. When he begged me to take him along, I asked why. He said his father was going to kill him.
Now, as a young child I often said the same thing. But I refused, explaining that a passenger had to be at least twelve. At Basin, the nearest little town eight miles south of Slippery Gulch, I stopped at the Silver Dollar Saloon and talked to some nice folks I’d met on the way in. Asking them to try and get some help for Peter, I left for Reno to deliver the load.
Once I reached Reno, I discovered the company that ordered the machinery had gone out of business exactly 100 years ago. As a result, the Nevada Department of Transportation (DOT) got involved. They broke the seal, opened the trailer door and discovered, much to my surprise, that the load — a two-ton crusher — was gone.
Since this was the disappearance of interstate freight, the DOT notified the FBI. This also meant that as the driver, I was in deep doo-doo. I hired an attorney, with the help of a Professional Trucker’s Legal Association. Frank Krandell, a federal attorney, thought the case sounded fascinating. As he delved into the case, he received help from three key people in Basin: George Swansen, half-owner of the Silver Dollar Saloon in Basin; Jane Dowdy, George’s sister and owner of the other half; and Jane’s husband, Mike. Frank would learn a great deal about Slippery Gulch and Jeremiah Peabody, the owner of the J. and J. Mines. Oh, and Peter Stevenson! But when Frank visited Slippery Gulch and the mine he discovered that nothing was as I had described it.
At the mine, the archaic piece of machinery used to load the crusher into my truck was on its side, the wood rotting and the metal working parts frozen in rust. And he found no trace of the few people I’d seen in the town a few days earlier. The only visible footprints besides my own were the small barefoot tracks of Peter, overlapping mine as they did on my earlier visit.
Just as disturbing was the road into Slippery Gulch. Twenty feet of the road had been washed out by the spring melt, and that had happened several months earlier. It was impossible for me to have driven into Slippery Gulch when I did, yet my tire tracks were clearly visible going through town, up to the mine and then departing.
One week later, I found myself back in Slippery Gulch accompanied by two FBI agents, my attorney, the three folks from Basin, and Tasha, a parapsychologist. It was then that I received a devastating blow: I was informed that Peter Stevenson had been brutally murdered by his father on June 30th. I felt personally responsible for his murder; Peter had warned me and begged to leave town with me.
I was then informed there was nothing I or anyone else could have done. As a matter of public record, Peter was murdered by his father, June 30, 1901. This meant that Peter had to be a ghost; but I did not believe in their existence. One week earlier, I had talked to him, touched him and photographed him. For some reason, I had a brief encounter with the supernatural. Nevertheless, Peter was the one that led us to the missing crusher.
A few days after the mystery of the missing equipment was solved, an editorial was discovered in the archives of Jefferson County, Montana. The publisher of the Slippery Gulch Gazette, a one-sheet tabloid, had penned it four days after Peter’s death. His editorial described the terrible life and brutal death of a little boy in Slippery Gulch — Peter Stevenson. It quoted Peter’s last mortal words: “Please Lord, give me a friend.” His funeral was also described as a travesty of a Christian burial, “bearing no respect by any parties present — save your faithful scribe — save the innocent deceased.”
Four days after the crusher had been found, I was back in Basin. I was going back to Slippery Gulch alone to make one last contact with Peter. However, before returning, my new acquaintances, Jane, George, Mike and I decided to give Peter the Christian funeral he deserved. We planned the funeral for June 30, 2002, 101 years after his death. We would place his bones in a modern casket under a granite stone engraved with words of respect.
I was able to spend a day with Peter, learning just how special he was. He spoke of many horrid things he’d endured as a child while trying to survive in this frontier mining town — events not mentioned in the editorial. But he also raised a number of questions in my mind — mysteries pertaining to his life a century ago.
The most shocking disclosure was Peter’s conviction that I was the answer to his prayer for a friend — at long last, I must add. For that reason, when Jane suggested I take Peter as my passenger in my truck, I balked at the idea but knew it was something I was destined to do. My Presbyterian background informed me that our friendship was foreordained in God. And so, Peter came on the road with me.
Over the next three weeks on the road, Peter’s worst fears came out in the form of nightmares. Ghosts sleep, you ask? I don’t know, but mortals do. And for all intents and purposes, Peter seemed mortal to me — well… most of the time. It seemed that his terribly damaged, mortal body was returned to him by God in perfectly restored condition, as though he’d never been beaten — or dead! As a result, he was able to receive the love and affection he had been denied as a living child.
I humbly say this: Because of the love the two of us shared, his worst fears were faced down and defeated.
Once in New Mexico, Peter saved me from being involved in a serious accident. He foresaw it in his mind and told me to slow down. In the accident that I was able to avoid, a little girl was seriously injured and pinned in her parent’s van. While sitting in my truck, Peter was able to see the child’s injuries and knew she was dying from the loss of blood from a severe head wound. I gave him part of a sheet. Invisible to everyone but me, Peter entered the damaged mini-van and stopped the bleeding, thus saving the child’s life. The news releases deemed the save “a miracle rescue on I-40.” As a result, my new friends in Basin privately declared Peter an angel, rather than a ghost. Knowing Peter better than anybody else, I had to reject that notion. After all, I lived with him 24-7.
Four weeks after leaving Slippery Gulch, Peter and I were camping with friends of mine in Adirondack State Park in upstate New York. My friend of thirty-five years, Bill Early, brought along his teenaged son, Danny, who was good for Peter. The first night in the park, Peter was asleep on my lap before a campfire when Danny asked if Peter could show us what his body looked like at his death, after his father murdered him.
Danny could not fathom what the reader might be able to understand. Peter’s mother died shortly after Peter’s birth. My friends and I believe that Peter’s father became mentally unstable and blamed his wife’s death on Peter. Whatever his thinking, this loss drove him over the edge. The older Peter grew, the more his father resented him. To paraphrase the biblical book of Job, his father cursed the day Peter was born. The day of Peter’s murder, his father went berserk. It had not been a clean murder by gunshot. His father delivered a furious, fatal punch to the face. For Danny’s comfort, I speculated Peter likely died from the punch before he hit the ground. His father then knifed Peter over thirty times with a large blade. After the stabbing, his tiny body must have resembled a slab of raw meat on a butcher’s block. I then had Danny look closely at Peter, peaceful and content on my lap. I asked if he was certain he wanted Peter to change his appearance. Danny looked at Peter with tearful eyes before he turned away and dashed into the woods, unloading his stomach on the way.
While Danny was gone, Bill asked if I’d thought that perhaps Peter wasn’t a ghost at all. I thought he was suggesting that Peter might be an angel. However, his thoughts were in the opposite direction. He said he wanted me to consider something: Since Peter could change his appearance, could it be possible that he might have demonic powers?
At first I was stunned, but realized I couldn’t give him a definitive answer one way or the other. Bill really set me thinking that night. Could the miracle rescue on I-40 have been a demonic ruse intended to set me and others up?
I didn’t sleep very well that night, but I felt certain we’d all receive the proof we needed. As it turned out, we didn’t have long to wait.
CHAPTER ONE
The next morning, I was up by six with a fire going, enjoying my first cup of coffee. Bill joined me at 6:30. I looked at him with droopy eyelids. “You didn’t do much for my sleep last night, Bill.”
He looked up from his cup, guiltily. “I’m really sorry about that, Jake. I should have kept my thoughts to myself. In fact, I’m not really certain where those thoughts originated. There’s no way Peter’s the devil. I’m sure that will be clear to us today. We dare not view Peter any differently today.”
“I’ve thought about that all night. I know I won’t.” About 7:30, Danny joined us and at 8:15, sleepy-eyed Peter crawled out of the tent and walked toward me. I looked at him, masking my suspicions. When he climbed onto my lap, I melted. “Boy, are you ugly!”
He giggled. “I am not, but I am sleepy.” He stretched his arms up behind my neck.
“I bet you need some help waking up. Right?” He nodded. I explained to the other two, “Peter and I have developed some traditions over the last few weeks. One of them is how I help him get awake in the morning.” Over Peter’s laughing I yelled, “Go ahead and cover your ears.”
Soon my fingers were playing Peter’s armpits, ribcage and stomach like timpani in an orchestra. We were merrily carrying on when suddenly Peter stopped. He stared off at nothing in particular. He slid off my lap without looking down. I’d never seen Peter act this way.
Finally, I said, “Peter, what’s going on?”
He came around a bit and said, “I’ll be back in a couple of minutes, Jake.” And he vanished.
When he disappeared, we all jumped as if a firecracker had gone off. “What’s going on, Jake?” Bill gasped.
“I don’t have a clue. He’s never done anything like this before.” We sat there waiting; for what, none of us knew. After maybe three or four minutes, Peter returned to my lap and shot his arms up in the air for me to continue where we left off.
“Peter, what happened just then?”
“Oh, I just had to do something. Could you wake me up just a little more?”
Not knowing what else to do, I did — figuring sooner or later I’d get an explanation. After he got his breath back, I said, “Are you awake now?”
“Yeah. That was a good one. Thanks.” He turned around and gave me a hug. Of course, I returned the favor.
“Look, go get dressed. When you come out, I’ll have a pancake ready for you.”
“Okay.” Into the tent he went.
“Jake,” Bill fairly whispered, “it’s a wonderful thing you’re doing. But I don’t understand what I think I saw. Is it, well, possible that…”
“Join the club. I think we’ll find out.”
A couple of minutes later, Peter rejoined us. The pancake was the color of his skin. I placed it on his aluminum camp plate. “Careful, it’s hot.” We froze, quietly watching him devour it as if that act were somehow supernatural. He was a kid enjoying each crowded bite, one after another. To prove it, he asked for another one. He watched me cook this one in fascination. He thrilled at my flipping it. So, I did it once without the spatula — a true flapjack. He thought that was great and insisted I do it again. In the middle of that one, he asked for a third. These were not small pancakes; they were the size of the frying pan. “Okay, but where are you going to put it?”
He pulled up his shirt and said, “Right here,” rubbing his belly.
And he did, miraculously. It was then time to wash the dishes. I explained how everybody had to do his fair share and wash his own. I told him to come down to the lake and I’d show him how. Peter never complained. He happily accepted his responsibility.
Afterwards, he declared, “I have to poop. Where’s the toilet?”
Having forgotten to tell him about the outhouse, I pointed toward it. He studied it and turned to me for help. “That’s an outhouse. Isn’t it?” He never used one when he was alive because of the fear of being trapped by his enemies. I recalled that upon sitting on his first toilet seat back in Basin, his tiny body nearly fell in. But he soon learned how to hold himself up. Now the thought of slipping into the dark, smelly pit below was too much. I understood where he was coming from. I felt certain he would soon conquer this fear as he conquered his earlier fears.
After the rest of us took our turns, we talked about the day. Bill came up with an idea: “Jake, you’ve been down on the far lake, haven’t you?” I nodded. “Any fish down there?”
“Supposed to be bass and Muskie, but you couldn’t prove it by me.”
“Are there any cabins on it?”
“None. In fact I’ve never seen anybody on it.”
“By any chance is there a place to swim?”
I thought for a minute. “You know, I think there is. One corner looks like there may even be some sand in it.”
“Well, why don’t we make a day of it? We can fix a lunch, go down there and fish for a while, then eat lunch. After lunch, we can swim for a while, then fish some more.”
Peter got so excited he started to flap his arms like a loon.
Just as we were ready to leave, Ranger Casey pulled up and got out of his government-issue 4x4 pick-up. “Jake, could I talk to you for a minute?”
I walked up to him. “Sure. What’s up?”
“I’m on my way back from Blue Mountain. Something happened over there about an hour ago so I drove over to check things out. I’ve never seen anything like it. I thought I’d talk to you, being a truck driver.” I looked at my watch. Peter had disappeared exactly one hour ago. “If a fully loaded semi loses its brakes on a steep hill, how could it stop mid-way down?”
“Short of a thick, concrete wall, it couldn’t. Why?”
“I didn’t think so. A big truck loaded with 45,000 pounds of freight was coming down the hill into Blue Mountain from Long Lake when it lost its brakes. As it came around the bend, a fifteen-passenger van was making its turn into the entrance to the museum. Twelve small kids were in the van along with three adults! The trucker says they were in his direct path, but the truck pulled to a stop ten feet from the van! And no skid marks! The driver was at a loss as to how he stopped. He kept repeating, ‘Praise the Lord.’ Jake, how could that happen?”
I was speechless. I looked over at Peter, who was impatiently waiting to get going in the canoe and playing with the bottom of his shirt. “I don’t know, but I firmly believe in miracles. I’d say Blue Mountain was the recipient of one.”
“I’ve never believed in God or miracles and such, Jake.”
“You have sixteen people in Blue Mountain that should be dead, but they’re not. Do you have a better explanation?”
He stood there looking at the ground, shaking his head and kicking stones aimlessly. He stopped, bent over, reached down and picked up a stone to examine it closer. Then he handed it to me. It was a small piece of gray granite. In the middle were two black lines of feldspar. They roughly formed the shape of a cross. He looked at me, confused. I think he felt the same chill I felt. “No! I don’t.” He looked down at the rock, pocketed it and turned to go. “Well, good luck, Jake. Have a good day.”
I walked over to the canoes. “What was that all about?” Bill asked.
I relayed the situation as the ranger had explained it to me. I didn’t mention the stone. We all looked at Peter. He put his head down, as if embarrassed. “Kiddo, that was you. Wasn’t it?”
He looked up slightly and nodded. Before I could say anything he said, “Jake, I couldn’t let those kids die. Some of them were smaller than me.”
I got down on my knees and gave him a hug. “I’m very proud of you, Little One, but how did you know?”
“I don’t know. You were tickling me when all of a sudden I saw everything in my head. I had to do something. When I got there, the truck was only 100 feet away from the van.”
“How did you stop it?”
He thought about this. “I don’t know, I just did. Jake, are you mad at me?”
“Are you kidding? How could I be? You just saved the lives of sixteen people, including the truck driver; most of those people were children. But why didn’t you tell us when you came back?”
Again, he put his head down and shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know.” I knew. He never talked about saving the little girl on I-40. He wasn’t a bragger. I looked at Bill with a question in my eyes, Now do you think he’s the devil? He smiled and shook his head, no.
Both Bill and Danny came out of their canoe and shook Peter’s hand. “You’re a hero, Peter,” Bill said. Then Danny shocked Peter by picking him up and giving him a hug. A hug from a teenager was almost enough to bowl him over.
“Keep one thing in mind, folks. Unfortunately, this will have to remain our secret,” I said. They all agreed. “Well, let’s get going.”
It took about two hours to get to the second lake because Peter didn’t have the strength to paddle any harder. But Bill and Danny were great and took it easy. Peter never knew they could have gone much faster.
Once we got to the lake, Peter and I pulled into shore for some fishing lessons. I showed him how to bait a hook with a worm. I put a bobber on the line and explained how and why to use it, then threw it out a ways. I showed him how the reel worked and handed the pole to Peter. I explained how to set the line if he got a bite. After a couple of minutes, he got one. He was so excited that he yanked the hook right out of the mouth of the fish and for that matter, out of the lake, too. “I think you set it a little too hard,” I said trying not to laugh.
A few minutes later, he got another bite and was much gentler with it. As a result, he landed it. It was a six-inch smallmouth bass, but to Peter it was a small whale. Thank God, I brought a small camera for a few pictures. He wanted to save it and show it to Bill and Danny, but I explained that by then the fish would die. Disappointed, he agreed. As I showed him how to unhook and release the fish, I’m sure he reflected on the word die that I’d just spoken. He knew death!
From then on, he baited the hook himself. He caught a half-dozen more that morning before lunch, releasing all but one. That one had swallowed the hook. After I yanked the hook out, the fish died. Peter’s body slumped. I threw it as far out into the lake as I could. Almost immediately, a seagull swooped in and gulped it down. I explained that though the fish had died, it became food for the seagull, and that’s the way it is, the law of nature. He took everything in and seemed to understand.
We all compared notes over lunch. Since Peter caught several more than Danny, he was voted fisherman of the morning. He looked at me and said, “But you didn’t fish at all, Jake.”
“Kiddo, my fun was watching you.” We chewed on PB & J’s (more commonly known as peanut butter and jelly sandwiches) without saying much. We devoured small bags of potato chips, chocolate pudding and bug juice — the camper’s term for Kool-aid. While we ate, a chipmunk came up to Peter for a handout. He reached out a small piece of bread. In a flash, it was gone.
After lunch, Peter asked when we could go swimming.
“How ‘bout right now?” I reached into my small backpack and pulled out a pair of jockey swim trunks for Peter. He had been with me when I bought them and thought they were neat. I helped him get into them. Then it was off to the lake.
We spent the next hour boyishly playing and dunking and splashing in the water. Peter once gulped too much water and reached for my neck. Once his air passage was free, I threw him out from me as far as I could, much to his delight.
Bill and I got dried off while the kids stayed in a while longer. When the boys came out, I expected Peter to come to me to be dried. Instead, he stood in the sand moving his bare feet through it. As he watched the sand sift between his toes, he giggled. I was going to call to him but realized this was Peter’s introduction to sand. I sat down and watched, fascinated. Realizing what was happening, Bill and Danny quietly joined me.
Next, Peter himself sat down in the sand and watched it sift through his fingers. Now he poured it over his legs.
Bill grabbed my arm whispering, “This is fascinating.”
Peter continued pouring sand over his body, experiencing the feel of it. He got up on his knees to dig holes. He was transfixed and so were we, watching him. Now he stood up and poured the sand over his head. He giggled with the feel of it sliding over his sun-dried shoulders and down his back and stomach.
Now it was back to the lake. Now back to the dry sand to roll in it ’til he was completely covered. He drew a circle on his sandy chest as water dripped from his hair onto his chest taking sand particles with it down to his stomach and beyond. He was totally oblivious of our eyes. Here was an infant six-year-old in discovery mode. Right now, he didn’t need any of us. He was consumed with himself and the sand. And completely free!
It occurred to me that during his entire life, he had to depend solely on himself for entertainment. He came up with whatever entertainment he could, like throwing rocks at objects. It was all his imagination; others had taught him nothing along those lines. Granted, most of his time likely had been spent coming up with ways to avoid his worst enemies while finding enough food to stay alive. I doubt if the word “play” was in his vocabulary often.
He was up running from one side of the beach to the other, arms out from his side like wings, and his lips making the noise of a plane. On the way back, he ran through ankle-deep water. He made the turn and did a belly flop in the sand as if landing, all the time giggling.
Next, it was back in the lake then into the sand again. He rolled, did somersaults and attempted a headstand. This was completely unlike anything he could possibly do in Slippery Gulch. And the difference was not the sandy beach. Here with us, he was free and safe to be the child he was never given a chance to be.
Finally, Peter had had enough and the three of us had been given a wonderful display of pristine childhood. The best part for us was that it was handed to us from a child who had never had a childhood.
But Peter was tired. He finally came to me, covered in sand and asked if he could lie out in the sun for a while. “Better hop in the lake and get the sand off. Don’t forget your hair.”
Soon he was back to be dried, his hair still a little gritty, but passable. “Can I?”
“I don’t see why not.” He rolled down the trunks as far as possible and lay down on the towel. “Why did you do that?”
“I want to get a tan every place.” He giggled. “Well, almost every place.”
I applied extra lotion to those areas not well tanned, namely his armpits and lower abdomen, but he was asleep before I finished. Danny lay down with him while Bill and I relocated under a tree.
“Jake, watching Peter play in the sand a few minutes ago, was one of the greatest displays of exploration on the part of a small child I’ve ever witnessed. Is this the type of experience you’ve been having with Peter all along?”
“Ever since we hit the road together! Let me tell you some of his monumental discoveries; like the time he learned to blow bubbles with his butt while in a bathtub.” Bill chortled at that. “Or the time at the end of the same bath, he feared being sucked down the tub drain.” Bill cracked up, rolling away from the tree holding his side.
After Bill regained his composure, I got serious and gave him several examples like planes, trains and buildings taller than two stories. I rolled Peter over and applied more lotion, explaining to Bill, “No sense in having him well done on only one side.”
“Who’s learned the most in your month together, you or Peter?”
“That’s a good question, Bill. Peter’s learned a lot, but I have, too. It’s just different. I’ve learned some things about myself that I never knew. I thought from teaching and my days camping with kids that I knew children pretty well. Well, I don’t. I’ve never had to actually raise one on a daily basis, and nurture him so he can overcome his particular fears! I’ve had to remember what I’ve always told others — learn to expect the unexpected.”
Bill remained quiet, so I went on. “I’ve learned how to answer some questions I didn’t want to answer; and some I thought I’d never have to address because I didn’t have a family. I’ve learned how to do things I never even dreamed of doing before, like teaching him how to blow his nose and wipe his own butt. Until he learned, I had to be the one to get down and dirty and give the help he needed.”
“What’s the one biggest change this has made in you, old friend?”
“I’ve come to accept the fact that I’m no longer number one.” I reflected on that and Bill kept silent. “I’ve learned that my independence isn’t as important as I once thought it was. And I’ve learned how to deal with some pretty rough emotions — both Peter’s and mine. I sure can’t control Peter’s, and I’ve found that I can’t control all of mine, either.”
“You mean you’ve cried or gotten really angry at times?”
“Right on both counts.”
“How did he react to your tears?”
“He once told me he sees me as the father he always wanted but never had. When he saw another man cry, he thought it was strange. But when he saw me cry, he figured it was normal.”
“Wow! That’s a helluva breakthrough. And a compliment to you.”
“Don’t I know it.”
“Jake, with Peter’s help, you’re learning how to be a father. Isn’t that true?”
“Yep!” I bit my lip.
“I’d say Peter’s a pretty good teacher.”
I burst out in a sudden laugh. “You know, I never looked at it that way. I guess I love Peter like a son. Look, as Peter’s star pupil, I think I’d better get him out of the sun.” I picked him up and sat down with him on my lap in the shade.
“True confession: I always thought that with Jake Winters, God was number-one,” Bill commented.
I looked up at Bill, then back down at Peter, and then at Bill again. “I’ve tried. But plenty of times, I forget and see myself acting like I’m above God — the most important thing behind the wheel. You know? But now I’m forced to become number three.” I looked at Peter again. “This little guy, without saying a word, is constantly reminding me that God is number-one for both of us. After all, if it weren’t for Him, Peter wouldn’t be on my lap right now.”
The three of us sat there quietly looking at the little miracle on my lap.
Finally, Danny broke the silence. “You know, it was fun playing with him in the water. He’s so light. He’s so easy to throw around that you forget that he’s…you know, dead, but he’s just like us. He’s… he’s even warm.” Danny rubbed a finger down Peter’s cheek, affectionately.
I smiled. “I know. Took a lot of convincing for me to get the facts straight, too.”
“Earlier when he was discovering the feel of sand, I’m glad you let him enjoy his freedom and his childhood,” Bill said. “It was obvious he wasn’t the least bit concerned about us. He was too busy discovering.”
Just then, Peter stirred. After his eyes had focused on my face, I said, “Man, are you ever ugly.” He started giggling at once. “You need some help waking up?” His giggles turned to laughter, and we all started laughing.
Once he got his breath back, I said, “Let’s swim a little longer then gather our stuff together. We’ll try fishing over there from the canoes for a few minutes; then we should start heading back.”
While walking through the sand to the water, Peter slowed down, then stopped. We all stopped with him and watched the sand sift through his toes. “Jake, could you bury me?”
“Sure, I guess. In fact the three of us will work together.”
We buried him in no time, everything but his sweet, trusting face.
“How does it feel in there?”
“Kind of neat. It’s warm in here.”
“I wonder what would happen if I poked a hole in the sand, right about here.”
At first, he giggled then squealed as my finger made contact with his ribs just below his right arm. In response, he exploded out of his sandy grave.
Then it was off to the lake for all of us. Peter was thrown, tossed, passed, pitched and spun to his heart’s delight. When it was time to go fishing, the sand was totally out of his hair, and mind.
On the way over to our fishing spot, I explained to Peter how he’d have to behave in the canoe if he got a fish, so he wouldn’t flip us over. We all fished with a bobber and a worm. Within five minutes, Danny got a nice bite. He played it well. Peter watched intently. I explained just what Danny was doing, and why. Finally, Danny landed it. It was a five-pound smallmouth bass.
“Wow!” Peter exclaimed. “Look at the size of that thing. I didn’t know a fish could get that big.”
Moments later, Peter got a nice bite. He set it well and the fight was on. It was also a good one. “Jake, help. What should I do?”
“You’re on your own, Kiddo. You know what to do. If he wants to run, let him; but keep some tension on the line. That’s it, you’re doing fine. Don’t turn around; lead him to Bill’s canoe.”
At one point, the bass jumped completely out of the water. Peter was ecstatic. He held on as Bill grabbed the line to bring him in. They wrestled it to the bottom of the canoe. Once on the scale hook, Bill called out, “It’s a four-pounder!” We both had a bucket in our canoe for just that purpose, so Bill put it in his. But Peter wanted it in ours. We transferred it to our canoe. It was all Peter’s now.
He studied it a long moment and then baited his hook and swung it back into the water. In a couple of minutes, Peter had another. Again, he played it well and brought in another four-pounder. We all laughed and were thrilled for him.
Then Danny got a three-pounder, and as suddenly as it started, it stopped. Often when the action suddenly stops, it indicates that something big is out there. If there was something, it wasn’t interested in what we had to offer. We sat for another twenty minutes with no action whatsoever. Finally, it was time to go. “Do we have to?” Peter whined.
“Yeah, it’s getting late, Kiddo, and we have a long way to go.” Bill and I had both been skunked and the kids made the most of it. We both acted disgusted and came up with several limp excuses for our lack of luck.
It was a new experience for me to be joining Bill as if we were two proud fathers putting our boys on a bit.
Danny pointed out that although he caught the biggest fish, Peter caught the most. “That makes Peter the fisherman of the day!” he asserted.
I felt a father’s pride. For the first time, really.
In spite of his nap, Peter was dragging. He wasn’t going to make it to ten tonight. What a day he had! He wanted to know if we could do it again tomorrow. We pretended that he had to talk us into it.
Bill got some pictures I’ll always treasure. (They ended up on the visor over my steering wheel.) Danny and I worked on the fire while Bill cleaned the fish and Peter watched with a great deal of interest. He had plenty of questions.
Peter was so tired! He was barely able to get into his PJs without help. He went to sleep on my lap so fast that we didn’t have a chance to talk about the day’s catch.
Danny, after a while, and with a touch of embarrassment, asked hesitantly if he could hold Peter for a little while.
“Sure. Why not?” I gently put Peter on his lap.
Danny looked down at Peter affectionately. “He is so little and neat. And cute… and funny. How could anybody hate him, especially his own father?”
“Danny, the day before he was murdered, three teenage boys caught him in an alley and beat him unmercifully. He suffered terrible internal injuries. The next morning a man found him nearly dead and carried him to his father. So, that was why he was scared of you at first. You’re a teenager.”
Tears came to Danny’s eyes. “I don’t understand it. How could anybody not love this kid?” He thought for a minute. “He’s not afraid of me now. Is he? I mean, he knows I’d never hurt him. Doesn’t he?”
“He does. He thinks you’re great!” In the background, Bill drew deep breaths of fatherly pride.
We both went for our cameras. Peter sat across Danny’s lap with his head resting comfortably against Danny’s chest. The pose made for many cute pictures.
After taking Peter back, I said, “Well, I’m beat!” I’m turning in.”
“Yep, we’re right behind you,” Bill said. Bill and I stood up but Danny remained seated. “Danny, you coming?” Bill asked his son. Danny was deep in thought.
Danny looked up at me and out of the blue said, “Jake, have you ever thought that Peter… well, that maybe… he isn’t a ghost?”
Does Danny think Peter could be the devil, too? Bill and I sat back down. “What else could he be, son?” his dad asked.
“He’s just such a nice person. He’s so polite. And kind! You know, he saved you in New Mexico, Jake.” (I’d told them about the miracle rescue on I-40 earlier.) “And then this morning… I thought that, well maybe… oh, this is going to sound stupid.”
“No, go ahead, Danny,” I encouraged.
“Well, maybe… well, do you think he… Peter, could be a, an angel?”
“Actually Danny, you’re not the first one to suggest that. But I personally don’t think so. If he is an angel, would he have stolen candy — even though he was putting me to a test? Would an angel have such evil nightmares? Would an angel be so lacking in self-confidence?”
“You said that most of the time he’s as mortal as the rest of us. Those are all things any kid might do. Right?” asked Danny.
“I suppose so, but if he were an angel… I don’t know, I just don’t think he is.”
“It sure beats speculating he’s a demon, Jake,” Bill said.
Danny was aghast! “Who said that?”
Bill looked a little embarrassed. “It was something I mentioned to Jake last night — as just something else to consider.”
“There’s no way Peter’s evil,” Danny said, troubled. “I don’t think he has an evil bone in his body.” He looked at Peter. “The devil could never appear to be as good as Peter. The devil isn’t interested in saving people from death. Besides, Jake would know by now. Dad, I can’t believe you even said it.”
“It was just a passing thought last night. But after watching Peter today, that thought is gone. If anything, I agree with you now, Danny. I think there’s a chance he might be an angel, an angel on a mission.”
“I don’t see how it could even have been a passing thought,” Danny said to his father. “Peter is the neatest kid I’ve ever met, and that includes my cousins. I don’t think he’s a ghost, and I know he’s not the devil.”
“Look, I don’t want to get in the middle of a family feud, but Danny, your dad brought it up not because he believed it, but just as something to think about. And I have thought a lot about it. In fact, I spent most of last night thinking about it. I also prayed about it. No, I didn’t hear an actual spoken answer, but I feel very comfortable that Peter is not a demon. At the same time, I’m quite certain he’s no angel either. He has said he’s a ghost. If he were an angel, especially my guardian angel let’s say, don’t you think he’d know it? And so would I.”
“Have you ever asked him?” I shook my head no. “But it dawns on me that if he were from the dark side, he wouldn’t have seen his dying prayer answered.”
“He was a terrific little kid who had a horrible life that ended in a brutal death. Maybe the powers-that-be felt sorry for him. I got my prayer answered, too, and I’m no angel.”
They had no idea what I was talking about. I hadn’t told them about the prayer I’d said before leaving Slippery Gulch the first time. After relating the whole story, Danny said, “Wow, that’s really spooky. I suppose you’re right. Maybe it was the combination of both of your prayers working together that brought him back.”
I realized that couldn’t be. I’d met Peter before I said my prayer, but I was tired so just said, “Could be.”
“Angel or no angel, he’s pretty special,” Bill interjected.
“I’m not going to argue with you there. Well, I’ll keep an open mind. In the meantime, I’m beat and I’m going to bed.” This time they both agreed.
CHAPTER TWO
The next morning Bill, Danny and I were out at the fire when Peter came out. He crawled up on my lap and patiently waited for a few minutes while the three of us continued our conversation. He finally lost his patience, looked at me and said, “Well?”
“Well, what?” I responded.
“Are you going to wake me up, or not?” he asked with a little disgust in his voice.
“Oh, yeah. I forgot.”
“You did not,” he said with a giggle.
“You’re right, I didn’t.” After he regained his breath from being tickled, I said, “Hey, let’s see your pits.”
“Oh, yeah. I forgot.” Stretching up both arms, he said, “Am I tan?”
He had a light golden tan, but not as dark as the rest of his body. “They’re getting there, Kiddo. Well fisherman, why don’t you go in and get dressed so we can get moving?” With that, he was gone and back in less than a minute, ready to eat and face another new and exciting day.
He rushed for me and dove across my lap. I put my hand on his back and said, “You’re a darned good fisherman. You going to catch more today?”
Leaning down toward the ground and examining my bootlace he said, “I hope so, but I want you to catch something.” With a little snicker he added, “I don’t think you know how.”
Bill and Danny started laughing. “Is that so! Well I’ll show you, you little turkey.” I dug my fingers into both sides of his ribs as he squirmed like a snake and squealed in delight.
After breakfast and cleanup, we were on our way. Peter, better rested than the day before and getting the hang of the canoe and the paddle, was paddling more proficiently. We made better time.
That morning we had no luck whatsoever. We decided to call it and go swimming. After swimming for a while, I got an idea. “Hey you guys, let’s show Peter how to build a sand castle.”
“A what?” Peter asked.
“That’s a great idea, Jake,” Danny said. “Come on, Peter. I’ll show you.”
I didn’t know where to begin, but Danny jumped right in. He grabbed our empty fish buckets and construction was underway. With Danny as the construction engineer and Peter as the lone labor manager, the structure began to take shape. Bill and I were the token sidewalk observers.
For Peter, this was all brand new. Though Danny was building the traditional sand castle, Peter had no picture in his mind of what one looked like. So he often put in his own ideas.
Danny was patient with his little friend. Meanwhile, we two observers sat in total fascination as Peter’s discoveries mounted in number. Miraculously, and partly because the sun was not drying it out, the castle grew ever larger up until lunchtime.
Over lunch, we men bragged on the job our boys had done, and they bragged on it too. During one of Peter’s animated descriptions of how they fashioned the balconies, he dropped a large blob of grape jelly on his belly. He paused to get it off, but only managed to smear it around. Then smearing itself began to absorb him. It was soon all over his belly. Laughing he said, “Look, my belly button’s purple.”
He stood up and posed like something out of National Geographic.
At that point, we decided we could all use a bath. Fortunately, that day we brought soap and shampoo. I had him remove his trunks. I scrubbed the jelly from the band of his trunks while he washed his belly. He worked on the sticky glob in his belly button now mixed with sand and found it was no longer fun. He finally asked for help.
I worked and got most of it. However, the sticky purple mess in the wrinkles of his belly button would have to wait for warm water and a Q-tip back at camp. After washing his hair, I helped him put his trunks on, then tossed him into deeper water. He immediately swam back. I threw him to Danny, who passed him to Bill, who then passed him back to me. He was a happy kid. After an hour, Bill and I got out and let the kids play a while longer.
Danny was doing an outstanding job of helping Peter’s confidence grow. Peter could use a “big brother” on this outing. He needed to become weaned from me in some real ways. So we let our boys play a while longer outside of our immediate supervision.
When they came out, Peter was lying on a towel in the sun and had rolled his trunks as low as possible. He was spread eagle with his arms stretched over his head. Today I had him apply the lotion.
Bill and I moved into the shade under a tree. After relaxing for a few minutes in silence I said, “You know, Bill, a couple of weeks ago, Peter asked why I never tickled him between his legs. After a couple of sessions, I think I finally got the lesson across. Most children Peter’s age have a good understanding of things like that. But Peter never had a teacher — a friend he could turn to. Nobody ever talked to him except to call him names. In the last four weeks, it’s been like dealing with an infant six-year-old. Everything we assume a six-year-old would know had to be taught, like how to use toilet paper. But this kid is extremely intelligent and learns fast. And he’s appreciative.
“Over those four weeks he’s become more independent. He is capable of drying himself and his hair, but that’s become one of our traditions. He loves being wrapped up in that big soft towel and cuddled. Heavens, what kid doesn’t like to be loved? He experienced no mother’s love because she was dead. So, I’m doubling as both mother and father. He needs affection… I give it to him.” I managed to conclude with a tight-chested, “He knows I’m there for him.”
After a minute or two Bill replied, “The more I see of Peter, the greater my admiration is for you. You’re doing a terrific thing. Few orphans should be so lucky. And we’re talking twenty-first century adjustments.”
I gave Peter forty-five minutes on one side then had him roll over. Bill and I walked back to the shade of the tree where we continued our conversation. “Were you uncomfortable with those early demands Peter made on you?”
“No, but over the last few weeks, there were times I had to roll up my sleeves and do what a parent has to do. Like any real parent, I gradually got used to diapers, Band-Aids and lotions. I guess I’m a Mr. Mom, if you think about it.”
“What was your worst experience, Mom?”
“That would be his first bath in the creek below Slippery Gulch. When he removed his clothes and I got my first look at his body, I was appalled —almost sick to my stomach, and fighting tears of anger! Bill, he’d never had a bath in his life. The neglect was obvious everywhere. Where body parts came together, there was caked grit. Stinking filth!”
I paused to gain control of my emotions. I looked over at Peter, laying in the sun, clean, safe and enjoying himself. Bill sat patiently as I fought my emotions. “I’ve seen kids cover themselves with mud, but Peter was painfully different. He’s covered with fine peach fuzz, but his body was too caked for the hair to show.
“Anyway, we got down in the stream. I never use a washcloth myself so I didn’t think to bring one. I had to use my hands. In retrospect, I think a washcloth would have been too harsh for his tender skin during his first bath anyway. I figured I’d wash his hair and he’d wash the rest, but he didn’t know how. He’d never been taught. Not only that, I think he needed that human touch… to know that finally someone cared. You see, in some ways it was my worst experience, but it was also our first tender moment. I will always treasure it.
“As I washed my little unwanted waif, I had to fight the tears. Peter noticed but said nothing. I was so disturbed by the neglect that I wasn’t nervous about the job.”
“Was Peter embarrassed?”
“No. He knew I cared and that I was there to help him. We talked as I washed his arms and I’d say, ‘Wow, look at that. It’s clean!’ When I got to his belly button, I said, ‘Hey, look what I found. What is that?’ He looked at me, uncertain what to say.
“‘Your belly button,’ I said incredulously.
“‘Belly button!’ he repeated several times, examining it with his tiny fingers.
“As I worked my way down and around his body, I constantly came up with something to keep him laughing and keep back my tears.”
“Has he asked many questions about the body?”
“Lord, you won’t believe. That’s what I meant yesterday. I’ve already had a lot of questions I wasn’t prepared for. Things I never thought I’d have to address! I can’t imagine them getting more difficult.”
“Trust me! You ain’t seen nothin’ yet. It’s amazing what uncomplicated, innocent minds can come up with to fluster adults.”