Songs
Peter Rehard
Copyright Peter Rehard 2011
Smashwords edition
Songs:
Moldy Mushrooms
Aurora
1999
Gunman's tale
Ancestral Blues
Black Cloud
Blow
Blue Bird
Bright Lights and the scene
Cancer
Dull white moon
Empty Pocket Blues
Flowers
Kids and Cats
Lilting
Long Love lost
Mad Dog
Sweetness True
Tryst
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Moldy Mushrooms
I see monsters and demons
On my wall; in my bed.
My momma put a was cloth
To my fevered head when,
I started screaming:
Momma I'm seeing,
Devils in the sky with my name on their shields
And Angels in a line with scrolls of fire,
Lamb of god, my time has expired.
Momma, don't you know, it's your boy,
Love you more that god's glowing soul.
Momma hold me say I'll be all right,
If I can just make it, live through the night
Hold me, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
No!
I said you set me free,
I've got something to say,
I'm a modern man I need my room to breathe!
I have something to say,
But it's hard to explain
With all these colors and shapes
Moving around in my brain.
I see a beast with three heads
It goes by the government's names;
See an angel: three wings
It calls the church profane.
And momma, I see, it's our old man,
He touches woman, with the back of a cold dead hand
Momma, don't you know that it's hard,
To be living in a world soaked through with flaw.
Momma hold me say I'll be all right,
If I can just keep on, breathing tonight.
Hold me, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
No!
I Said I have to believe,
That there is something more
In this world living, better be good alone,
I need to hit the road,
I see a name on the wind,
It's says come and I have to begin
My feet are aching and the world is sick.
****
Aurora
Monday, oh miserable monday,
It gives you Tuesday, the weekly hideaway,
And leads to wednesday,
Wednesday of memory,
I swear that every day is the same.
I was walking, in the waters,
Of my sorrow, I swam so deep.
I started choking, I was drowning,
It was hard, hard, hard to breathe.
I saw my shadow, it said, you don't know me.
I had a damsel, I had a girly
She was true pretty, a classic beauty,
I held her softly,
With her body burn burn burning
She said you don't what love really means.
So I go running, in the nighttime
On the tree line
With the stars over my mind,
And nightime quaking, The branches shaking,
They say stop stop stop chasing me.
Oh lord god, I see, Dim Selene,
The pure white goddess
Of the dull light moon beam,
And she is crying virgin tears for me.
I say don't cry virgin tears for me.
I go walking, I go kissing,
I go running, I am slipping,
I am falling down into me,
The world is holding me.
But in the morning, when the sunlight
Streaks and rides bright, Auras alight
And the first break down and push my eyes from sleep,
The sun god, yells, “Hope,” down to me.
****
1999
It's 1999 and my mom drives a leBaron.
I am sitting on the corner
Waiting with expectations.
I've got two 25 cent: video game expedition.
No I'm just leveling up
My pokemon red gameboy cartridges.
It's 1999 and I'm ready for death
Cause my mom,
My mom has got booze on her breath.
It's 2001 and my dad's having fun,
He bought himself 2
45 colt magnum guns
And i'm sitting in the closet
Playing with a metal box,
I find the silver clip, i'm ready to get shot.
It's 2001 and my dad's on the run,
He calls himself a bank robber
But he never robbed no one.
It's 1993 and my parents broke free,
They start testing methamphetamine
My daddy is trying hard to grow pot,
And my mom's cooking some bread in her box.
It's 1993 and I'm just a budding seed,
But the whole world is already closed on me,
My mommy and my daddy,
They got a lot to lose,
And I'm in myself, hiding from the world.
It's 1999 and I'm ready for death,
'Cause my life, my life,
Is rotten and full of dread.
****
Gunman's Tale
I was in the city on a sideways twisted street:
Back ally woman I did meet.
She came to my side and shoulder
And said in a dirty voice
“I never made a man make a choice.”
I followed up the stairs into her room
I lied her on a bed
That smelled of sweat and sweet perfume.
I asked her how much I'd have to pay,
To call her by another woman's name
Lord tell me your reason
Tell me your plan
Show me how to be a better man.
Lord show me the road,
Give me path onto the way
Tell me how to move throughout the days.
When I finished paying for my relief in gold
I kissed the girl, thanked her for the sin she sold
And wandered down the stairs into the bar
Grabbed the first and biggest bottle that I saw.
In the room filled with cigar smoke and cards,
In through the door came the sheriff and the law,
With a six star saying he's equipped to judge my flaw
Before the smoke cleared he saw me clear and shot
Out from my side my hand cannon I brought,
Fire quick and fired true
Down to boards he was doomed.
The people they looked up and saw the scene with shock
And an old woman told me to pray to god.
Lord tell me your reason
Tell me your plan
Show me how to be a better man.
Lord show me the road,
Give me path onto the way
Tell me how to move throughout the days.
Out of the city and out of the road,
I raced and paced until the woods covered my blood
In an old glade I hid and cursed my soul
****
Ancestral Blues
Way back in 1887
My great great great granddad had a farm
And he called that heaven.
He said if you went outside at night,
You'd see a millions stars,
Saying freedom in the skies.
Real land, open country,
Real living, milk and honey.
Well way back 1913
My great great granddad
Lived in a metropolis city.
He said if you went outside to find
Some freedom,
You'd get caught in a poverty line.
Hard living, No money
Bread and water; stale water, dry bread.
Then come 1944
My great grand dad
Got shipped off to the war.
Across the ocean, past the seas,
Wound up in a foreign country.
Told to kill and get killed alike;
He came back, holding his life.
Murder and death
Politics; greed and envy.
So when it was 1967
My grandad wanted his own heaven
He walked into a bank, stepping in line,
The manager near split his side;
said, “This ain't wellfare; we can't give”
But my granddad stood and tall and said,
“Why can't I have my own piece!”
Two men in suits tossed him to the street.
Inflation, monotony
The rich get richer. Too rich.
So here we come to 2011
My dad does nothing and I keep sweating
****
Black cloud
Come on black cloud
Move on down,
Move on away from me.
Come on black cloud
Move on down,
Move on away from me.
Let a little light,
Let a little light,
Let a little light on me.
It's been a long day,
It's been a longer night
I seen my mother die,
I seen my sister cry.
I saw my brother run,
I saw my father gone,
I'm telling you right now
Move on black cloud!
Move on down
let a little light on me.
Move on black cloud!
Move on down
let a little light on.
We hated war and death,
I say it's why we left.
We hated the hands of greed,
We fled with greatest speed,
Across the rivers and through the plains
Under the blizzards and in the rain,
To the mountains and to the trails,
Struck by heat and struck by hail,
And I'm laying down right now,
Move on black cloud!
Move on down,
Move on away to the sea.
Move on black cloud,
Move on down,
Let a little light on me,
Let a little light on me.
****
Blow
I saw my love go
Blow... through the wind
To where... I don't know,
Seeing all... love lost and made
Leaves falling... in a soft winter rain
Cold winds do blow
On my skin... in a gust
Thrust... through the sky
The... firmament shakes
breaks ...where our bodies once lied.
Through the front door
I see ...the flit of a dress;
Heels that tap ...out as she left;
and the ...wave of a hand
And... a thin smile for end
Cigarette smoke
Through the window ...blows;
An old ...blues song
and a phone ….that wont ring
While the breeze ...travels overhead.
****
Blue Bird
Blue bird flies
In the azure green
Up in the clouds
And over the trees.
Up in the yellow gilded rose,
Up where the winds twist dash and roll.
Blue bird flies to southern shores,
The hills and valley
The plains bellow
Blue bird flies to the love that died
Egg shells cracked laid waste
Where they lied
Blue bird flies around his nest
Where long ago, his life met death.
Blue bird flies
In the bowl of night
Moon is deep
And moon is white.
Up in phantom demon realm
Up where love gives way to hell
Blue bird flies on the winds of death
Towards the spot, to the cold blood scent,
Sees where his love was felled long ago
Blue bird enters the monster's storm
Strikes of lighting
Thunders roar
Shakes the tree and the leaves still fall
Blue bird circles and give his calls
Towards the love that has gone,
Towards his babies that have gone.
****
Bright lights and the scene
That girl Annie, she flew over the handle,
Got caught screening, poor girl, what a scandal,
Left to lose it
Busted hard
She got misused and abused
And her cigarettes are wet,
Where her lipstick is running,
She is wishing for the best
She is living in the bright light on the scene
Giving good, taking back, rearing and screaming.
Best believe, I conceive, I can see it
she running around, looking down her skirt,
Where is the mark, tell
her why does it hurt.
My girly Annie, she lost the battle,
Man done did it, made her, hurt her,
But she won't put down the rattle,
Tell rabble and the preacher and the teacher
What does she know, her daddy don't love her,
She is spitting looking
at her toes.
She is living in the bright light on the scene
Giving good, taking back, rearing and screaming.
But her blonde hair is matted
And her mascara is running,
They are screaming, she is dreaming,
Where's the money and fame,
Her boyfriend don't love, he just loves to stare.
And she swears I won't, but she did it again
She's another woman got run over by men.
****
Cancer
Cranberry seeds, the cancer won't grow,
The berries bleed and the lemon won't soak,
Give you a sting and breath that speaks
Says get out your coffin
And find that pale sheet.
Put on the crystals and take in the rays
The sun gives spite all through the day;
he says take the moon and sheen to console,
All the aches your body knows.
Poison and pain and the human race
gives disease and rushes to forget names;
The doctor, he comes and says oh boy,
Little boy, it looks like the curse
You got the cancer it's guna get worse.
Momma she cries but tears don't dry,
Deep inside a grave with laughing gadflies.
Where's daddy, he's looking around,
Don't see a woman, don't care, bringing you down.
Put on that paper that says the last given time
Take a ten week moment and pass on by
With your limbs come apart and blood turns dark
Give a breath, kiss your god and watch lights fall off.
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Dull White Moon
Can't you see that I am waiting for you,
Loved me more, I think it was lying through,
Teeth like razor blades,
Grab for the hand that went away,
And so you say that love, it went away.
When the moon comes crying down,
Dim selene she knows my soul,
I'm not too proud
Take these chains up of my feet,
Break the cuffs and put my hungry hands free.
Can't you see, that I am coming for you,
Just don't leave me in the dull white moon.
I see the sun, I start to think,
Nothing hold much of a thing to me.
I have my food I have my drink,
Those vitals mean not a thing to me,
Break a cup and smash a plate,
You can eat your pills,
I am awake,
Left to walk in the fading shade,
Just don't leave me in the dull white moon.
When the song goes out to lilt,
And the flower of your love grows gray
It's petals drip,
The smells, turns sour and I wait,
Let break, lock those chains,
I have to say,
I'm living in the dull white moon.
****
Empty Pocket Blues
Sitting on the back of a truck bed, my feet
Dangling in the road, dirt on the street,
Look at the people aint got a thing,
Checking my pockets, don't find a thing.
Here comes a rich man, sporting a suit,
Smoking a cigarette,
He ain't got one for you.
Check a these cars and the look at these stores
I don't see a thing I can afford.
I got my lows and I find my highs,
But they fall, before I try
Up on my feet
Out on the road,
So I sit, watch and hope.
My brother's holes, shoes don't step;
My sister's dress, is hemmed to a mess;
My momma's gone.
My daddy should be.
I have broke just about everything;
My pockets fold on in themselves
The bank teller smiles;
She only laughs.
Where is my food,
Where is what's just.
My feet sit bare, collecting dust
Here they go,
Those with all.
They sit clear and wait my fall.
****
Flowers
It's late at night, I can't sleep I'm bored
What's the point of sleeping
In the world anymore
I don't know what to do, I don't do it
I don't know what to think, I keep thinking.
My head hurts and my throat is sore,
I think I have cancer
In my brain, and cancer in my throat,
But I've made too many mistakes,
Now all I want to do is see your face.
I smoke and I drink,
I don't know to do, so I think.
I see myself in a deep lonely grave
And the grass is dead.
No one is standing there,
With their hands on their eyes, on their heads.
But so it seems that I made my grave,
Gave away friends and loves each day,
It's late at night, I can't sleep I'm bored,
What's the point of living
In the world anymore
I don't know what to do, I don't do it.
I don't know what to think, I keep thinking.
All around in the sky, the spirits shake,
Call out hell, give praise and claim my name.
Looking up I see one person pass,
See no face; hear no voice, I can only laugh.
****
Kids and Cats
Kids and cats and kids and cats
In the yard today,
I steal candy from the candy store
And I think that is okay
If you have, a dollar bill,
I'd say you have none;
For, when the tax man comes,
He'd say a big business won.
Kids and cats and kids and cats
In the yard in their graves
My momma says boy eat your bread
Eat your beans and your grains
But if you buy just anything,
Sold wholesale in a store
Bet your butt it's gassed and cooked
With chemicals, preserves and more.
Kids and cats and kids and cats
They are running afraid,
A man in a suit is standing outside,
Papers in his hands goes and waves.
Where is your money my good friend,
Tell me why you work so hard
Oh that paper and receipt for your pay,
Don't mean a thing if they say.
Kids and cats and kids and cats
Dead and rotted in their graves,
Had a good life, but it sure went fast
The millionaires put em in their place
Well if you want just anything
Hope for happiness or good,
You better turn around kill someone,
Before they come and kill you,
Cause the age of good is gone my pal,
Lost and wasted in the street,
No one cares about anything no more,
No one cares what they eat.
No one cares who you are,
No one cares what you do,
As long as you have lots of gold,
They can lie down for you.
****
Lilting
I started lilting on the day you left me alone
Smelled your perfume fading up on down the road,
Caught remnants in the lining of a moon lit rose.
I started lilting on the billow of the breeze in your breath,
Blew inwards to our bed and I slept,
Prayed to my god Somnus, make me numb, in sorrow, I succumbed.
I started lilting when the sunlight cut my eyes,
Grabbed the spirit rode it straight to phoebus' skies
And when the sun god cut me down, rode my demons, back to the ground.
I started lilting when the moonlight told your lies,
Heard the leaves go singing my memories,
And there a shadow lied to tell, saw you specter, wished it well.
I started lilting when my heart refused to beat,
Grabbed the floor saw your steps, walk and your feet,
Well I said I never loved, lied, and cried alone
I started lilting on the day you left me alone,
We fought and the room, our anger stormed
When you said it was not true, I said goodbye. The skies faded blue.
I started lilting when the fire and the clouds,
Called out my misery, hear the sounds,
And they say you prideful fool, lost my love in the world.
****
Long love lost
Here we go quickly here we go sweet,
My girls picking bunions of her feet,
She's been walking for ten days now,
Towards a new man and a new town.
Here we go innocent, here we go clean,
My girls burning like a candle in a sheet,
High in the sky, dim selene, she's bright,
Makes Apollo wish on the oncoming night.
Here we go heartache, here we go lies,
My girl left me wondering why,
She crept out the house, made no sound,
Like a fleet footed
deer, she's wayward bound.
She's been walking for ten days now,
Towards a new man and a new town.
My baby left me yeah she went away,
She said I love you but I can't explain,
And I've been thinking about moving on,
But my stomach is empty and i'm all alone
My baby left me standing in the road,
She said I love you but I gotta to go,
And I've been thinking kicking off,
But i'm a coward and my gun is cold
She's been walking for ten days now,
Towards a new man and a new town.
Towards a new man and a new town,
She got herself a new family,
She cooking up a new baby.
****
Mad Dog
My baby love a sing but she don't love me,
My baby love a sing, but she won't sing for me.
I don't know why, I can't seem to cry.
Every night, she going out on the town,
Every night, I know she is getting down,
I don't know, lord, I want to cry.
Every night she come ask me for dough,
She got the nerve come back ask for more,
I don't know, I stand and stride.
My friends say peter, peter,
Why are you such a fool.
I say, man, I got nothing else to lose.
My friends say, peter, peter,
Why are you so dumb.
I say man I can't help but feel numb.
Don't know why, don't know why
Only cry, and stand the lie.
But tonight! It's guna be a different scene,
If she come ask me for bread,
She'll see me looking red and mad dog mean.
She says, “Peter peter, don't you know
Your the only man in the world I love,”
I'm guna snap, she better split,
Before I turn around crack a bruise a lip.
Better not, dare don't bring that man,
I have a knife coming from my hands
Crack his skull, cut his neck,
He guna spill red beg for death.
Then she'll scream, “Peter peter why,”
I'll say I can't help but cry.
My baby love a sing, but she don't love me,
My baby love a sing, and she going sing for me.
****
Sweetness true
I had a woman, I called her sweetness true,
She was the most beautiful woman in the world
But she was a devil,
A devil I could not see.
I called her heartache and later on misery
What do you do, when your woman is not true,
What can you say, when she breaks your heart that day
My friend I can not say, no I sure can not say,
But I'll be there to give a hand for you.
I had a woman, I called her sweetness pure,
She was the most beautiful woman in the world
She was an angel,
An angel I could not know.
She called me evil and later on sorrow.
What do you do when past pain breaks on through,
What can you say, when you've made so many mistakes,
My lord what can I say, no thought what to say,
But I know fate tears at the things you do.
I had a woman I called her sweetness true.
The most evil woman in the world.
I had a woman I called her sweetness pure,
She was a true angel, angel of a girl.
****
Tryst
Have been sucking on a soggy cigarette
Holding in a moldy, smoke choked breath.
But the rain has stopped
Needles on the roof top,
Fell, hit, clipped, stopped
With small metal balls, rolled off the siding
Fill the grass and the lawn.
Where did she go, I don't really know
Walking away, walking away,
Walking away, walking away.
But she is no where to be found,
Feel my heart drown
On the last spoken words
See you soon girl,
But the figure in the dark, he called out your cards
Check your pocket book for the note
Where's the paper that I wrote
Where did she go, I don't really know
Walking away, walking away,
Walking away, walking away.
Look at these stems on the rose
Twisted, thorns, they broke
Snapped long ago
With a gray petal slopes,
The rains are starting fall
I can't wait too long
And a figure in the dark, he comes walking along
With a girl in his arms
A girl in his arms
A girl in his arms
Where did she go, I don't really know
Walking away, walking away,
Walking away, walking away.
****