From The Heart: Poems
From The heart: Poems is a book that I’d written to show how I have seen, experienced, and felt, saw, about the world, as well as my thoughts and feelings on all of this, plus my thoughts, feelings, etc., that I’ve had about, for, and to people about various topics, including love, sex, and also the topic of domestic violence (on the topic of Domestic Violence, I’d written about it to help raise awareness about domestic violence). I hope that you will enjoy my book.
Dedications:
I dedicate my book to all of my friends who have ever been there for me and who’ve helped me heal and become a stronger person in life. Tim, thank you for being you and also for being there for me when I’d needed a friend, the most, as well as for having saved my life those two times. Anna Feador, Anna W., Tim White, Diane Singer, ShellyAnn, Samantha, Shaun and his partner, Barbara, Norma and Collin Beishir, Pastor John Morden, Carolyn, Cathy, Beth, Donna, Elizabeth, Mark, Mike, Martin, David Hardingham, Jessica and Jen Salazar, Derek (Jeremiah) Bailey, Christina, The bunch at WMD on www.writersofmassdistraction.com and to everyone else who I’ve met throughout the years who’ve been a friend, who’ve listened to my incessant babbling (I talk a lot, as most of you all know), and to whom have been a sounding board while I’d shown my poems and who’d then given me critiquing of my poems. Thank you to all of you. Big hugs to you, all.
April Morone
Love and Friendship
"Searching for You"
I
search for you
But
I can't see you, clearly
A
hazy image in the distance
You
see me and reach out
But
we don't make contact,
Completely
You
cry out to me
I
answer you
You
say you can hear me
But
through this hazy maze
I
am not sure it's enough
To
help you through
I
know that you're aware
That
I am here and listening
So
slow down along your path
To
let me help you
Through
this haze of doubt and uncertainty
So
that your hope can be renewed for everything
I
will show you the way
Give
into the arms of a friend
I
will support you
Let
down and let go
And
in time
Everything
will mend
"A
Search, Unfulfilled "
A distance,
travelled,
In the longing for life,
And in the unfound
search for his love.
The search brought strife.
Out
across the distant lands,
My friend’s search for happiness,
love, and peace,
And a hope for differences to happen
Was
one that was not put at ease.
His heart now
aching
For what for him was lost-
Love, hopes and
dreams-
Loss of wholeness, the cost.
Comfort
seems needed.
The tears, they need to come.
Sometimes
they won't for him-
Not even when he’s alone at
home.
Bittersweet, life is.
Irony, not
lost.
Life's complications can be appreciated,
But
leaves my dear friend
drained and tossed [about].
But
for us,
Life presses on,
Whether we want it to, or
not.
And so, we go on most times,
feeling sad and
distraught.
A word, song,
Or even a
thought,
Brings back all these memories for him,
And
his heart grieves
For what for him was lost.
There
must
be a break-
There must
be a reprieve-
Somewhere and somehow.
But for right
now,
No way does there seem to be.
So,
now we cry,
(And cry, we must,
To help get us
through
Because there’s been hurt by those, trusted-
Crying
is the only way to heal
That
will do).
Though we try not to show
tears
Because it can be taboo,
He is near tears,
now,
And because of this,
It makes me cry, harder for
us
But, I look away so that
He doesn't see.
I
SEE the pain on his face,
And the tears in his eyes,
And
I feel pain for both of us.
Life shouldn’t be this hard
And it has me question why
About
the reason life is this way.
And I see the pain
That
we both feel
Because searching has gone unfulfilled,
And
it brings me to tears to see a man cry,
Especially when he’s
lost
Hope and will.
I continue to be there,
By his side,
To help him through this,
And I pray that his search
Will soon be fulfilled
So that he can have bliss.
"You and Me”
I lay your head upon my shoulder
And speak softly to you,
Comforting you as I do so,
And listening to you,
Crying, inside, as I do.
I feel your hurt and pain,
And I see the hurt she does to you.
You cry, silently against me,
Lost in your despair and depression,
And ask what to do.
I say that I don't know.
And cry, myself, about this,
Not letting it show in my voice,
So to sound comforting and strong,
Thankful your back is facing me, during this.
I feel helpless to help you
Through it all.
And don't know what I can do.
I look at you to make sure you're alright,
And that you don't still feel like you might fall ([to suicide]).
You get up and go light a cigarette.
I silently thank God
For all he's done to help you through.
Feeling worn, I go rest.
You come sit next to me and prod.
So, I tell you that I'm fine
Because I worry you might not handle others' worries, too.
I see you smile, put your hand on my shoulder,
Then, nod and get up to put a movie on.
And we laugh at the funny parts of it, just me and you.
At times, you are there for me-
You'd held me as I'd cried,
Helped me through tough times,
And helped me when no one else could,
No matter how hard they'd tried.
I think back on that,
As I hear you laughing.
And I can't help but smile-
Smile about this, plus at hearing you happy.
Our friendship has the process of graphing-
Of making us more whole, again-
And I wouldn't have it any other way,
I decide,
As we watch the movie, and laugh at the funny parts of it,
Silently thankful for each other, this day.
"Silent
Plea"
My
heart aches
when
I see you
because
you are in pain
and
you won't tell me what I can do
for
you
This
ache, I can't get rid of
I've
tried, but to no avail
because
your sadness permeates everything
If
I try to help,
will
I only fail?
Want
to touch you-
got
to have you-
it's
not fair that you're so close
yet
I can't have you
Even
as I stand just inches apart
so
close that I could almost touch you
you
are unreachable
All
I want to do
is
to show love to you
But
you've been too hurt
your
soul, now guarded
so,
you won't allow anyone in
and
it hurts me to see you
broken-hearted
If
I could just touch you-
a
gentle hand on your face
hold
you
in
a loving embrace
Tell
you things that could help you heal
listen
to you of your dreams
But
your hardened heart
keeps
you safe
you
won't show the emotions you feel
The
emotions you've told me
you
feel for me
But
you hold back out of fear
If
only you could let yourself be happy
God,
it hurts
to
see you in pain
but
I will keep that to myself
so
to not make you feel worse, again
Let
me take away your pain
let
me be the One
Let
me show you love, again
Let
me show you that it doesn't have to hurt
to
love,
or
to open up, some
Let
me wipe away your tears you've shown me
Let
me take it all away
Let
me be your shoulder-
your
confidante
Please,
just let me help
make
it all better in some way