By Annalise Grey
Copyright 2011 Annalise Grey
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1.
Soliloquy of the Lost Soul
To go or not to go
this dilemma weighs heavy.
For whether it would be better to love, lose and remember
than to never love and forever wonder,
I am not yet sure.
Shall I go with him
giving my heart
or languish alone, grieving for my soul's lost desire?
He is my shelter, my peace.
He gave me gift of laughter
and a sense of myself.
Without him I am lost.
But would I not be more lost if I were to lose my heart
to the trickeries of an uncaring Fate?
Yet his eyes are kind and trusting.
Making me believe
true love endures.
Through time and despair
this one constant stands.
Yet time persists in wearing away dreams
and soon will my heart
be gambled for
and lost.
My mind is to be my one true guide,
unfailing, ever faithful.
Still my heart screams the joys
of bountiful love.
Oh Heaven help me if ever you did care for this stricken soul!
Oh Heaven help me if ever you did not!
*
2.
Wanna see destruction?
Wanna see me fly?
Take this heart from its empty cave
twisting it tight.
Make it yours
and I'll become a shadow
loving you until I shatter
under the weight of your kindness.
*
Slowly I forge in time
a beating heart
and make it shine.
Silver tears I cry
for my past and crime.
I sever my soul to keep it mine.
*
His ten tiny fingers grasp my one
Earth's own
hand grown
Maiden no more -
now Mother!
I am teacher,
singer of lullabies
to soft eyes
and holder of futures
in two trembling arms
*
Surrender to the Fire
of Love's saving Grace
and fill your heart
with Desire
and Love's immortal Face.
*
I'd steal eternity for that dream in time
when I'd melt into azure
The weight of a thousand hearts
forgives what breaks me from the soul I crave
With memories of that desperate heat
my ghost still lingers where he sleeps
and these haunted moments of clarity
are making me brave
He knows he felt like home to me
as he'd brush away my fears
The screaming center of his need
carried once the promise of peace,
beautiful as the wings he gave me
*
As he stands a breath away
and takes me here tonight
my raging storm inside grows silent
and all the world is right
*
My Hatred flies with Butterfly Wings
This night of mine is long and cold
and I am afraid
Giving all I never had
is wearing me away
I have a hole inside my heart
It slowly fills with rage
as I see a lovely face
its emptiness portrayed
I feel the heat of my lies
as I yearn for something more
pleading voices in my head say
“I just want to be pure”
*
I do not belong here
among grating brick walls
and soulless streets
My eyes reflect the stars
shimmering in obsidian night
and the scent of the forest
is heavy on my skin
*
I open my eyes but he is gone
Vanished
from this too large
yet still warm
bed
Oh sing to me again
with spontaneity
leave baubles
and perfumed shirts
for me to squeeze into
on long and foggy nights
with comforting remembrance
to last me through
unused space
and reoccurring dreams
*
11.
To have and to hold
not possible
I am
tall
and
muscular
raven-haired beauty
to all
but one
He
who brings me
consecrated seeds
and choking gold rings
a kiss
to keep me close
until
my own company I must keep
for I am
no longer needed
not loved
no
body
burned for
so I sit
pen in hand
and scribble away
about all that is left undone
between us
un-cried for
and
unsaid
*
Yellow resounds
in loving comfort
for a moment when addictions
cost you nothing but sleep
and me
all I have inside
*
I have a song stuck in my throat
my nightingale once sang it to me
now I sing to her
She called two nights ago
again inquiring if I'm alright
“Yeah of course. Never better.”
She knows the truth
so I sing to her
Her comfort
'cause I'm so far away
and she sounds
so close
across the wires
then she cries
and I wish my song
were Silence
*
14.
You ask me why the jewels have fallen from my eyes
A light for dark passages no more
Once you spoke honest words to me
Of why there is weakness in organized religion
Yet strength in AA meetings
You tell me my thoughts are my own so you won't pry
I wonder why you even bother
*
Pennsylvania native, dreamer, explorer.
I write because I like talking to the voices in my head. They are (usually) good company. I love to travel (when I have the $ for it). My family is everything to me.
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